Tuesday, September 29, 2009
kinda like this.
so who the heck uses this anymore? sorta like myspace haha. who uses that nowadays. oh well. never was that big on these things ahaha. guitars the way for me =]
Saturday, July 25, 2009
had my schedule
just was too lazy to post it but
its:
geery-1
han-2
zelaya-3
may-4
no 5th (jacks just didnt input anything for my 5th period so it says 4 then 6 on my shcedule)
sprague-6
its:
geery-1
han-2
zelaya-3
may-4
no 5th (jacks just didnt input anything for my 5th period so it says 4 then 6 on my shcedule)
sprague-6
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
acceptance.
glad me and mark can both have the oppurtunity to work on it =]
we are the living stones of God.
our body is the temple of the Holy Spirit.
and like all bricks, when we and other build upon each other in God, their might be some rough edges and parts that need to be removed before building.
and God is currently working on that for me lately =] (He's allowing me to be tested! ^__^)
its good cuz i know that i havent become quite bitter towards some people and im sorry hahaha.
i know my parents was one of them cuz they really annoyed me, then other time came when i was playing sf4 at michaels house, but i know that it'll go away now =]
and also, just focusing on God more in the day is what i need, cuz when things start to be too smooth, i know i'm in some kind of trap hahaha. cuz an easy life i know shouldnt be something i should seek where im all relaxed, it tricks people, but idle time is the devils playground, and i may have this barrier set in front of me from any aid i might truly need, spiritually/mentally.
beavis once told me, your life is on track, when theres hardships,not eactly easy times, but you keep strong in God.
its the difference between a strong believer and another believer who doesnt exactly live out what he says.
i know i need to work on that =]
but really, it was nice to mentor some of the people i have, its nice to mentor the ppl i am right now. its nice to know God's unfolding everything for me, just that i really need to keep my eyes/mind set on him constantly =] it keeps me always at that mellow level, some people find it very mature, or just not my age, some people find it different, some people find it annoying. i really dont know ahhaha. i want God to shine inside out thorugh me, people to see God in me, even though theyre physically looking at me and all they dont realize that something inside, thats really just God.
i need to work harder at that =]
we are the living stones of God.
our body is the temple of the Holy Spirit.
and like all bricks, when we and other build upon each other in God, their might be some rough edges and parts that need to be removed before building.
and God is currently working on that for me lately =] (He's allowing me to be tested! ^__^)
its good cuz i know that i havent become quite bitter towards some people and im sorry hahaha.
i know my parents was one of them cuz they really annoyed me, then other time came when i was playing sf4 at michaels house, but i know that it'll go away now =]
and also, just focusing on God more in the day is what i need, cuz when things start to be too smooth, i know i'm in some kind of trap hahaha. cuz an easy life i know shouldnt be something i should seek where im all relaxed, it tricks people, but idle time is the devils playground, and i may have this barrier set in front of me from any aid i might truly need, spiritually/mentally.
beavis once told me, your life is on track, when theres hardships,not eactly easy times, but you keep strong in God.
its the difference between a strong believer and another believer who doesnt exactly live out what he says.
i know i need to work on that =]
but really, it was nice to mentor some of the people i have, its nice to mentor the ppl i am right now. its nice to know God's unfolding everything for me, just that i really need to keep my eyes/mind set on him constantly =] it keeps me always at that mellow level, some people find it very mature, or just not my age, some people find it different, some people find it annoying. i really dont know ahhaha. i want God to shine inside out thorugh me, people to see God in me, even though theyre physically looking at me and all they dont realize that something inside, thats really just God.
i need to work harder at that =]
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
=]
my electric's high e string snaps sunday, and itd be annoying to restring cuz it uses a floyd rose floating trem bridge, which is annoying as crap especially with its bridge knobs and crap,
earlier today my fender acoustic g srting snaps, but i havent put new string on that since like december,
but then right now, my martin's high e string snaps, -_____________- and theyre not even like light strings! dkncskjdnvsjkdn
but whatever, God's good =] He always provides ahhaha
He's the brightest thing i got =]
-by
earlier today my fender acoustic g srting snaps, but i havent put new string on that since like december,
but then right now, my martin's high e string snaps, -_____________- and theyre not even like light strings! dkncskjdnvsjkdn
but whatever, God's good =] He always provides ahhaha
He's the brightest thing i got =]
-by
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
woop =]
in the winter season spiritually, aka, Gods allowing me to be tested in certain ways so i can grow ever more =] and not remain as a spiritual infant! ahhaha. cuz the uprooting season with more ppl and stuff has alredy been provided and just passed through. So i know this is the time for me to be able to mature in God. He's the artist. im just that piece He's working on, molding me into who He designed me to be, and giving tests to get rid of my rough edges.
anyways, summers been good so far hahaha. growing up hahaha. i mean shoot i'm already a junior huh hahaha. gonna be an adult soon, but i got my life sorta planned out, dont relly need to plan it out because i know God will provide, and has planned it out for me anyways. been hanging out with a couple of friends. working on that guitar and making some new stuff actually =] and im still blessed with those voice lessons that will hopefully pay off ^___^ and yeah.
its God's promises i have to hang on to.
cuz,
its the brightest thing i got.
-by
anyways, summers been good so far hahaha. growing up hahaha. i mean shoot i'm already a junior huh hahaha. gonna be an adult soon, but i got my life sorta planned out, dont relly need to plan it out because i know God will provide, and has planned it out for me anyways. been hanging out with a couple of friends. working on that guitar and making some new stuff actually =] and im still blessed with those voice lessons that will hopefully pay off ^___^ and yeah.
its God's promises i have to hang on to.
cuz,
its the brightest thing i got.
-by
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
dont it always seem to go
that you don't know what you got
til its gone.
hahahah lots of things happening, but i know God gots me to see these things happen for a reason.
i thank Him so much for everything =]
its still the molding time. always.
cuz its the brightest thing ive got
-by
til its gone.
hahahah lots of things happening, but i know God gots me to see these things happen for a reason.
i thank Him so much for everything =]
its still the molding time. always.
cuz its the brightest thing ive got
-by
Saturday, June 20, 2009
ipod touch project: day 1
so eventually we wanna sell this idea to i think instructables?
my friend michael, a dif michael from my mentor michael ahhaa.
but this one, andys brother, well i went to his house today hopefully trying to go chill with andy hahaha. which didnt happen til pretty late in the night.
well my ipod touch light has been broken for about a yr now, and knowing that my friend is good at electronics and engineering and random stuff, i decided to start this thing with him on my ipod touch. we wanted to mod it, and do deisgns and stuff.
so we first opened up the ipod touch. safely removed ribbon cables, logic board, and all the stuff that was cheaply set with clue and screws.
then inside the back cover did an engraving of the date and all that good stuff. we took a look at the lcd and learned alot hahaa. leanring that its just super thin pieces of metal sheets with programming inside layign on top of a piece of glass. intense huh? ahhaha. well, on the itouch,the netire back is metal, with the outer rimming of the front part. the rest, the touch part, is actually glass, therefore paint or anythign wont stay on but just scrape and smear off. therefore we used metal tape, and duct tape to go on the front part, cut out the framing for the rim, and peel that part of the tape off. so we can easily spray the entire thing, but only the rim would have paint left when we peel off the tape. the front is to be red outlining, and the back part, we wrote down my serial number on my phone and all, and used sandpaper to sand down the back, so the specs would be gone, and it would be super shiny and soft and unbelievably smooth ahahha. we sanded it in a downwards direction (if your ipod touch is standing upright in the correct position) and sprayed the entire back white, watching out that the spray paint wouldnt go through part of the usb/audio areas and cover the ribbon connector's pins, because that may be bad stuff D: so after that, we put metal tape over the back, which is all white, and i drew a design, sort of a monterey pop stratocaster, only found by jimi hendix live in monterey's tour (the guitar he burned) and john mayer, holding a replica that he paid like 7 grand for. hhaha extremely hard to find. so since the back is all white underneath the metallic tape, i drew the designs, and would cut out some of the deisgns with this sharp edge we had, and cover the rest of the design we didnt want red, and easily spray it all red, only having the cut out uncovered part red. and do other colors like green, brown etc later on.
so its not exactly done with the design, which is actually engraved and then sprayed on btw hahaha. totally forgot to mention that. and ill hopefully be back there monday =] to continue the good stuff hahaha.
today was a really good experience ahaha. hanging with such different people like that =] learning alot and all.
God taught me that like sometimes, in order to be molded into who He designed me to be. like an artist, he has to sorta get rid of the rough edges, or like shake off the unecessary. and i can truly see Him working on me. He's getting rid of the things i do not need, and uprooting things and giving me more things. so really, let's just put it like this. just let go and let God! ahahha sounds simple huh? ahah xD well its simple, if your mind is set to it. everythigns all in the mind, thigns you do, motivations, even how you feel and correctly responding to situations which can also help you in being optimistic,(philippians 4:4,8) and like that one chapter in matthew where i think peter was in the boat and Jesus was walkign on water and by faith peter walked on water when his eyes were fixed on Jesus. but since there was a strom as soon as he took his eyes off Jesus he started to sink. same with us, our problems are below us,and we are above our problems (water) when we focus our eyes on Jesus,(our minds and all), but when we stop having him off our mind most of the time, dont even realize him all the time which helps us be better in our actions, thats when we tend to fall away, or just take Him for granted etc.
confession: theres my problem ahahha. it just started again recently, but hopefully i can focus more on Him. idle time is the devil's playground hahaha. sometimes i just dont have Him on my mind, especially hanging with friends, i did for a moment and it was just wow. things happening hahaha. but yeah. its during tests when God can shine the most through you, because of right actions(that is if you do take the right course of actions) but i know im being put through this cuz of a prophecy my friend/mentor beavis told me about.when he was talking to me n an old friend that we rarely see now about who we would want to reach out to someday. i said the younger generation, cuz most people, hit puberty and styff mid school, and thats when most of the trouble starts to happen, depression etc. and now i can see, ive been molded enough, after 2 yrs, to continue working with God. i met ALOT of the younger generation, funny thing is i love to hangw ith older people, and theyre mostly my close friends that i talk to chill and hang and like adult sort of talk, hnaging out at a food place and just be chill and talk ahhaha. i dont relly like to hang with my own peers cuz i feel that they r into too many stupid things and for a moment i was too, but i caught myself. just blank in the head, no revelations or realizations, not exactly what id say mature. but what do i know? ahahhaa. i guess its cuz im a mellow guy. but its nice to have the younger generation looking up to me as a sort of friend/good friend/ and even best friend =] ahhahaa. i know this is happening cuz God has a better plan for me than i do for myself.
its the brightest thing i have.
-by
my friend michael, a dif michael from my mentor michael ahhaa.
but this one, andys brother, well i went to his house today hopefully trying to go chill with andy hahaha. which didnt happen til pretty late in the night.
well my ipod touch light has been broken for about a yr now, and knowing that my friend is good at electronics and engineering and random stuff, i decided to start this thing with him on my ipod touch. we wanted to mod it, and do deisgns and stuff.
so we first opened up the ipod touch. safely removed ribbon cables, logic board, and all the stuff that was cheaply set with clue and screws.
then inside the back cover did an engraving of the date and all that good stuff. we took a look at the lcd and learned alot hahaa. leanring that its just super thin pieces of metal sheets with programming inside layign on top of a piece of glass. intense huh? ahhaha. well, on the itouch,the netire back is metal, with the outer rimming of the front part. the rest, the touch part, is actually glass, therefore paint or anythign wont stay on but just scrape and smear off. therefore we used metal tape, and duct tape to go on the front part, cut out the framing for the rim, and peel that part of the tape off. so we can easily spray the entire thing, but only the rim would have paint left when we peel off the tape. the front is to be red outlining, and the back part, we wrote down my serial number on my phone and all, and used sandpaper to sand down the back, so the specs would be gone, and it would be super shiny and soft and unbelievably smooth ahahha. we sanded it in a downwards direction (if your ipod touch is standing upright in the correct position) and sprayed the entire back white, watching out that the spray paint wouldnt go through part of the usb/audio areas and cover the ribbon connector's pins, because that may be bad stuff D: so after that, we put metal tape over the back, which is all white, and i drew a design, sort of a monterey pop stratocaster, only found by jimi hendix live in monterey's tour (the guitar he burned) and john mayer, holding a replica that he paid like 7 grand for. hhaha extremely hard to find. so since the back is all white underneath the metallic tape, i drew the designs, and would cut out some of the deisgns with this sharp edge we had, and cover the rest of the design we didnt want red, and easily spray it all red, only having the cut out uncovered part red. and do other colors like green, brown etc later on.
so its not exactly done with the design, which is actually engraved and then sprayed on btw hahaha. totally forgot to mention that. and ill hopefully be back there monday =] to continue the good stuff hahaha.
today was a really good experience ahaha. hanging with such different people like that =] learning alot and all.
God taught me that like sometimes, in order to be molded into who He designed me to be. like an artist, he has to sorta get rid of the rough edges, or like shake off the unecessary. and i can truly see Him working on me. He's getting rid of the things i do not need, and uprooting things and giving me more things. so really, let's just put it like this. just let go and let God! ahahha sounds simple huh? ahah xD well its simple, if your mind is set to it. everythigns all in the mind, thigns you do, motivations, even how you feel and correctly responding to situations which can also help you in being optimistic,(philippians 4:4,8) and like that one chapter in matthew where i think peter was in the boat and Jesus was walkign on water and by faith peter walked on water when his eyes were fixed on Jesus. but since there was a strom as soon as he took his eyes off Jesus he started to sink. same with us, our problems are below us,and we are above our problems (water) when we focus our eyes on Jesus,(our minds and all), but when we stop having him off our mind most of the time, dont even realize him all the time which helps us be better in our actions, thats when we tend to fall away, or just take Him for granted etc.
confession: theres my problem ahahha. it just started again recently, but hopefully i can focus more on Him. idle time is the devil's playground hahaha. sometimes i just dont have Him on my mind, especially hanging with friends, i did for a moment and it was just wow. things happening hahaha. but yeah. its during tests when God can shine the most through you, because of right actions(that is if you do take the right course of actions) but i know im being put through this cuz of a prophecy my friend/mentor beavis told me about.when he was talking to me n an old friend that we rarely see now about who we would want to reach out to someday. i said the younger generation, cuz most people, hit puberty and styff mid school, and thats when most of the trouble starts to happen, depression etc. and now i can see, ive been molded enough, after 2 yrs, to continue working with God. i met ALOT of the younger generation, funny thing is i love to hangw ith older people, and theyre mostly my close friends that i talk to chill and hang and like adult sort of talk, hnaging out at a food place and just be chill and talk ahhaha. i dont relly like to hang with my own peers cuz i feel that they r into too many stupid things and for a moment i was too, but i caught myself. just blank in the head, no revelations or realizations, not exactly what id say mature. but what do i know? ahahhaa. i guess its cuz im a mellow guy. but its nice to have the younger generation looking up to me as a sort of friend/good friend/ and even best friend =] ahhahaa. i know this is happening cuz God has a better plan for me than i do for myself.
its the brightest thing i have.
-by
Friday, June 19, 2009
hmm
mellow days. love it. just like me. hahahaha
good day to play guitar, sing, and play sf4 at mikes house! woot! hahaha and shoot, the best for last, cell! hahahaha. we haven't had that in awhile. God has His promises =]
but shoot, matthew 6:33! wooot! aahhahaha
anyways, im in the middle of a sognwriting thing i gots going on =] i pray that i could write with Him and not lose focus, or inspiration.
cuz He's the brightest thing i've got.
-by
good day to play guitar, sing, and play sf4 at mikes house! woot! hahaha and shoot, the best for last, cell! hahahaha. we haven't had that in awhile. God has His promises =]
but shoot, matthew 6:33! wooot! aahhahaha
anyways, im in the middle of a sognwriting thing i gots going on =] i pray that i could write with Him and not lose focus, or inspiration.
cuz He's the brightest thing i've got.
-by
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
down to the wire
i wanted water but i'll walk through the fire
if this it what it takes
to get me even higher
like i do, when i do
when the world keeps testing me, testing me, and testing me..
summer schools been easy so far hahaha, hope i get that a!
God's been blesinng me alot
good food today =]
nice chilling wiht my friend sam ahahha
losing alot of sleep now!
>___<
off to go rest! ahahahaa.
learning alot on the guitar, i just got some texts from my man scott about jamming again ahhahaa. woot!
im still thankful for those vocal lessons =]
so thankful for God, Jesus, for the Hly Spirit is in me.
the same that healed the blind man's eyes is in me. the One who raised ppl from the dead bys yaing come get up or wake up is in me. and i know that i can do all things in He who strengthens me (i think thats correct but the point is there), philippians 4:13?
ahahhaa. its nice to know that He can shine through me. cuz im just nothing. but with Him i become something...someone. and people see me, and sometimes get wowed, sometimes go like eww, but its not me they see ahahhaa. i don't shine. He does. and its nice to know that ppl can even think of me in ways when its relly just Him doing His work through me.
cuz its the brightest thing i've got.
-by
if this it what it takes
to get me even higher
like i do, when i do
when the world keeps testing me, testing me, and testing me..
summer schools been easy so far hahaha, hope i get that a!
God's been blesinng me alot
good food today =]
nice chilling wiht my friend sam ahahha
losing alot of sleep now!
>___<
off to go rest! ahahahaa.
learning alot on the guitar, i just got some texts from my man scott about jamming again ahhahaa. woot!
im still thankful for those vocal lessons =]
so thankful for God, Jesus, for the Hly Spirit is in me.
the same that healed the blind man's eyes is in me. the One who raised ppl from the dead bys yaing come get up or wake up is in me. and i know that i can do all things in He who strengthens me (i think thats correct but the point is there), philippians 4:13?
ahahhaa. its nice to know that He can shine through me. cuz im just nothing. but with Him i become something...someone. and people see me, and sometimes get wowed, sometimes go like eww, but its not me they see ahahhaa. i don't shine. He does. and its nice to know that ppl can even think of me in ways when its relly just Him doing His work through me.
cuz its the brightest thing i've got.
-by
Friday, June 12, 2009
summer
madness.
agahahha
summer just seems so blank for me.
but iono. hate the weather, but perfect weather for the music i love.
that bluesy jazzy even funky sort of stuff.
cuz ive got dreams..to remember =]-otis redding.
it just seems that theres so much more to summer right now
but i dont know yet ahhaa
its still fresh. and i got summer school starting next week!
yes! ahahhaa =] im taking art lawl.
ive been improving alot on the guitar.
had alot of genre crap going on. like what i should play.
i def know now.
=]
thanks to God, andy, scott for all the stuff you guys r helping me on the guitar ahahha.
thanks to everyone else for being a good friend and there for me =]
but seriously, thank you God =]
cuz You're the brightest thing i've got.
-by
agahahha
summer just seems so blank for me.
but iono. hate the weather, but perfect weather for the music i love.
that bluesy jazzy even funky sort of stuff.
cuz ive got dreams..to remember =]-otis redding.
it just seems that theres so much more to summer right now
but i dont know yet ahhaa
its still fresh. and i got summer school starting next week!
yes! ahahhaa =] im taking art lawl.
ive been improving alot on the guitar.
had alot of genre crap going on. like what i should play.
i def know now.
=]
thanks to God, andy, scott for all the stuff you guys r helping me on the guitar ahahha.
thanks to everyone else for being a good friend and there for me =]
but seriously, thank you God =]
cuz You're the brightest thing i've got.
-by
Thursday, June 11, 2009
covered in rain/
hmm.even a financial crisis and major debt can bring me stress ahhaha.
i wonder things. how to pay for college, cuz that moneys all spent.
alot of things revelaed, mom getting mad as an excuse to go shopping even more withdrawing cash, sendng checks to herself for more cash to spend. dad beings stressed out and frustrated cuz its his pay thats being spent by my mom. and my future ahhahaa.
but i know God will guide us out.
cuz He's the brightest thing i've got.
God is good. always
-by
i wonder things. how to pay for college, cuz that moneys all spent.
alot of things revelaed, mom getting mad as an excuse to go shopping even more withdrawing cash, sendng checks to herself for more cash to spend. dad beings stressed out and frustrated cuz its his pay thats being spent by my mom. and my future ahhahaa.
but i know God will guide us out.
cuz He's the brightest thing i've got.
God is good. always
-by
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
a sorta summer to do list...sorta.
go to andy's house alot more to jam
jam with scott and william more
finish summer school with all a's
continue working on singing
job, save up money
continue on the driving stuff hahaha
find that one place again
chills with some people
get fit again
start listening to some other stuff
get closer to God =]
jam with scott and william more
finish summer school with all a's
continue working on singing
job, save up money
continue on the driving stuff hahaha
find that one place again
chills with some people
get fit again
start listening to some other stuff
get closer to God =]
Monday, June 8, 2009
You're my
muse.
I still seem to be a bit impatient. but i can never hold anything inside of me. i always have to say sorry ahahaha.well my summers been great so far. i'm taking art starting next week for summer school ahahha. its kinda weird cuz its like that phase again when youre just like.UGH.new people at the school ahahah.and theyre freshman and little and not exactly grown up yet? ahahha i wouldn't know xD you know im just kidding anyways so ahhaha.been able to start going to church on sundays again =] its wonderful.
I've been starting to get into a bit more into indie or liek math rock sort of music, where i have to incorporate large amounts of whatever the heck i'm feeling at the moment into weird techniques such as intense finger tapping-techniques first inspired by stanley jordan and stuff.for the others who don't understand what the heck i just said, im not quite sure either xD <---not really. uhhh, ive been getting relly into stuff like interpol, doves, especially of montreal, and the fall of troy haahha. that sort of stuff.=]
I think i'm spiritually in a good place right now, but i know i can always do better. so if i were to give myself a grade in anything, id always give myself that f, cuz as long as i can do better, im not exactly successful in whatevers going on because i haven't exactly acheived that highest point.but my walk with Gods been smooth so far =] i feel a bit of fear sometimes or somehow, ahahah i guess its from the stuff id watch on tv and stuff, but theyre all just tests, so yeah. but overall, God's been unbelievably good to me.im still very thankful for the vocal elssons im receiving right now and family, and friends. especially some of my most recent ones that i'm getting close with, because i know God's providing me with certain people or people ive haven known because it'll help mold me. because like i learned in church, we are all living stones (gah dont remember the verse) but like all stones before they have to build upon each other, like how in 1 thessalonians says we r to encourage and build upon each other, we must be molded, like jagged parts taken off and stuff hahahaha. sorta make sense? ahahhaa. well. to put it all short, basically, i know Gods placed me where i am today with certain people and situtations involving me and others or just others for a purpose. a good purpose, because like any good loving father, theyd want their child(ren) to grow u =] and thats exactly what God wants to do with me.
currently reading:1 timothy
currently listening to: A Dreamy Day of Day Dreaming of You
every day is a dreamy day of daydreaming of you....
I can dream of you without snoring and I'm lucky that that's true =]
overall, God is good. always.
just read what i just wrote. (optimism is key.)<--honestly, my goal is to make you think, "of what?" but seriously, think about it =],openess is healing and words are powerful with love, otherwise at least i'd only be something that makes sound, without love that is. 1 corinthians 13.
-by
I still seem to be a bit impatient. but i can never hold anything inside of me. i always have to say sorry ahahaha.well my summers been great so far. i'm taking art starting next week for summer school ahahha. its kinda weird cuz its like that phase again when youre just like.UGH.new people at the school ahahah.and theyre freshman and little and not exactly grown up yet? ahahha i wouldn't know xD you know im just kidding anyways so ahhaha.been able to start going to church on sundays again =] its wonderful.
I've been starting to get into a bit more into indie or liek math rock sort of music, where i have to incorporate large amounts of whatever the heck i'm feeling at the moment into weird techniques such as intense finger tapping-techniques first inspired by stanley jordan and stuff.for the others who don't understand what the heck i just said, im not quite sure either xD <---not really. uhhh, ive been getting relly into stuff like interpol, doves, especially of montreal, and the fall of troy haahha. that sort of stuff.=]
I think i'm spiritually in a good place right now, but i know i can always do better. so if i were to give myself a grade in anything, id always give myself that f, cuz as long as i can do better, im not exactly successful in whatevers going on because i haven't exactly acheived that highest point.but my walk with Gods been smooth so far =] i feel a bit of fear sometimes or somehow, ahahah i guess its from the stuff id watch on tv and stuff, but theyre all just tests, so yeah. but overall, God's been unbelievably good to me.im still very thankful for the vocal elssons im receiving right now and family, and friends. especially some of my most recent ones that i'm getting close with, because i know God's providing me with certain people or people ive haven known because it'll help mold me. because like i learned in church, we are all living stones (gah dont remember the verse) but like all stones before they have to build upon each other, like how in 1 thessalonians says we r to encourage and build upon each other, we must be molded, like jagged parts taken off and stuff hahahaha. sorta make sense? ahahhaa. well. to put it all short, basically, i know Gods placed me where i am today with certain people and situtations involving me and others or just others for a purpose. a good purpose, because like any good loving father, theyd want their child(ren) to grow u =] and thats exactly what God wants to do with me.
currently reading:1 timothy
currently listening to: A Dreamy Day of Day Dreaming of You
every day is a dreamy day of daydreaming of you....
I can dream of you without snoring and I'm lucky that that's true =]
overall, God is good. always.
just read what i just wrote. (optimism is key.)<--honestly, my goal is to make you think, "of what?" but seriously, think about it =],openess is healing and words are powerful with love, otherwise at least i'd only be something that makes sound, without love that is. 1 corinthians 13.
-by
Thursday, June 4, 2009
last day of my sophomore yr of school
ahahhaha pretty tight. a bit bittersweet =]
definitely gonna miss a couple of people.
God's been good this whole year, and today =]
currently listening to: i dont trust myself (with loving you)-john mayer
"hold onto whatever will get you through"
God id good.
always.
and i am blessed.
here's a verse for you musicians or ppl who like music out there.
ephesians 5:19-20
definitely gonna miss a couple of people.
God's been good this whole year, and today =]
currently listening to: i dont trust myself (with loving you)-john mayer
"hold onto whatever will get you through"
God id good.
always.
and i am blessed.
here's a verse for you musicians or ppl who like music out there.
ephesians 5:19-20
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
hahaha
i don't like it when my dad tells my mom ima fail. and doesnt want her to tell me but my mom tells me anyways.
and it all pieces up about why he's tryign to tell me to try harder, sleep earlier and getting pissedt hat i'm not taking a nap at like 5 and stuff. ahahha dumb stuff xD whatever i forgive him, but that was pretty "penis" of my dad right there. talking to me as if im failing school ahahaha. giving me all that attitude hahaha. but whatever.
i must always honor parents =]
and God's still treating me right.
i had my chem finals today. passed pinkslip test too ahhaha.
tomorrow i have no finals.
thursday i have alg2 and spanish final
but overall God is good
-bryan
and it all pieces up about why he's tryign to tell me to try harder, sleep earlier and getting pissedt hat i'm not taking a nap at like 5 and stuff. ahahha dumb stuff xD whatever i forgive him, but that was pretty "penis" of my dad right there. talking to me as if im failing school ahahaha. giving me all that attitude hahaha. but whatever.
i must always honor parents =]
and God's still treating me right.
i had my chem finals today. passed pinkslip test too ahhaha.
tomorrow i have no finals.
thursday i have alg2 and spanish final
but overall God is good
-bryan
Friday, May 29, 2009
this is continuing the previous post today
but serious, when i say how great is our God, i seriouisly do not know the extent of His greatness, because just experience so little of it today afetr our combined cellg roup, His work and everyhtign thorugh people, i really just wish others could experience it with me, be there to expereince the same thing with me, and just be one body in Christ. Today God proved again He was real, not that i adidnt know, but He did it for the purpose to make my faith stronger. Im so thankful for eveyrone i met, and especially my accountability buddies, my church, cell group and such. Without God they wouldnt be placed in my life and i wouldnt be blessed with such amazing God-given passion and talent with His work through them to me. I thank God for a cluster, a community of people that i can relate to, talk to and just worship God with. Thank God for blessing me with other guitar players who are gifted and truly God-gifted in some to even inspire me to just give it all to Him, and let Him work through me when i play. I pray that whatever happens, i will become closer to Gods calling =] no doubt about that.
God is good. seriously. when im up or down. praise God cuz He is good.
without Him why would i be living this life hahahaha.
-by
God is good. seriously. when im up or down. praise God cuz He is good.
without Him why would i be living this life hahahaha.
-by
I
need you so much closer.
thank you for everything that You have blessed me with.
you are so lovely, and even romantic in your own way.
I love you God =]
I pray that everyone will realize how loving you are and that we may all be united as one body in Christ God. That we may walk and live right in You, an dno longer be brought down by temptation.thank you =]
in the name of Lord Jesus amen.
to be honest,
everythings been going relly well for me,
but its just that it seems that i get impatient easily now.
hmm need to fix that relly soon.
but overall remember God is good =]
-by
thank you for everything that You have blessed me with.
you are so lovely, and even romantic in your own way.
I love you God =]
I pray that everyone will realize how loving you are and that we may all be united as one body in Christ God. That we may walk and live right in You, an dno longer be brought down by temptation.thank you =]
in the name of Lord Jesus amen.
to be honest,
everythings been going relly well for me,
but its just that it seems that i get impatient easily now.
hmm need to fix that relly soon.
but overall remember God is good =]
-by
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
tireeddd
ahahhaah im so physically weak T_T
but Gods blessing me still =]
getting further in the guitar.
thanks to God and andy!
and vocal lessons, to be blessed with a voice teacher hahaha
in the end always, God is good
-by
but Gods blessing me still =]
getting further in the guitar.
thanks to God and andy!
and vocal lessons, to be blessed with a voice teacher hahaha
in the end always, God is good
-by
Sunday, May 24, 2009
God
has His purpose in everything
therefore keep heart.
"i can do all things in He who strengthens me"-philippians 4:13
"nothign is impossible with God" matthew 19:26
these r all out of memory, so it might be like words off, but its the same thing.
if anyone wants to pray for anyone, my friend gots aa prayer request for strength and to fulfill His purpose.
and remember, God is good =]
always
-by
therefore keep heart.
"i can do all things in He who strengthens me"-philippians 4:13
"nothign is impossible with God" matthew 19:26
these r all out of memory, so it might be like words off, but its the same thing.
if anyone wants to pray for anyone, my friend gots aa prayer request for strength and to fulfill His purpose.
and remember, God is good =]
always
-by
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
today
i was tested with a test, where i was put to the point of where i knew that i could not crumble in to the devils attacks, in case ppl r looking up to me, and for the fact i needed to stay strong. i did well =]
but i know i need to start being a bit more proactive in life now.
hopefully ill get a part time job in the summer to start saving up to help my college funds and all.
but overall i have to say God is always good =]
even if crap happens to you,praise God
btw. me crumbs is the coolioest >=]
but yeah, have to say it again, God is good
-by
but i know i need to start being a bit more proactive in life now.
hopefully ill get a part time job in the summer to start saving up to help my college funds and all.
but overall i have to say God is always good =]
even if crap happens to you,praise God
btw. me crumbs is the coolioest >=]
but yeah, have to say it again, God is good
-by
Monday, May 18, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
last night
ahahah couldnt exactly make it to michaels grandma's funeral
sorry =[ parents wanted to watch a movie and not drive far T-T
but i was able to go to my other friends house to take me to see my friends band.
met quite some ppl
i met my ex's ex whose pretty tight hahaha and all his friends
midget xD whose 4'9
and this chick name kayla
and i met my friend andy for the first time, who was playing hahaha
it was pretty fun =]
thats all to say ahhahaha
once again
God is good =]
kept us all safe last night too ^__^
-by
sorry =[ parents wanted to watch a movie and not drive far T-T
but i was able to go to my other friends house to take me to see my friends band.
met quite some ppl
i met my ex's ex whose pretty tight hahaha and all his friends
midget xD whose 4'9
and this chick name kayla
and i met my friend andy for the first time, who was playing hahaha
it was pretty fun =]
thats all to say ahhahaha
once again
God is good =]
kept us all safe last night too ^__^
-by
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
at fault
of faulty manufactoring.
so today was a good day =]
didnt dress for pe though, but i brought out my guitar ahhaha
it was extremely hot T-T
but whatevers
i went home, made some mac n cheese n i went to sleep
to be honest, sometimes i feel like theres certain people i wish ive never met, but at the same time it seems like theres something that just keeps me trying to talk to people. i guess its cuz im an independent person whose just used to be being by myself, but having friends is still sorta a new thing to me, so i still wonder what its like. although i had a bad start in many things but yeah.
hmm..im currently playing guitar right now hahaha
lawl i suck at blogs n crap aahah
well, im just hoping that vocal coach will reply to me soon
overall, i have to say. God is good. always =]
-by
so today was a good day =]
didnt dress for pe though, but i brought out my guitar ahhaha
it was extremely hot T-T
but whatevers
i went home, made some mac n cheese n i went to sleep
to be honest, sometimes i feel like theres certain people i wish ive never met, but at the same time it seems like theres something that just keeps me trying to talk to people. i guess its cuz im an independent person whose just used to be being by myself, but having friends is still sorta a new thing to me, so i still wonder what its like. although i had a bad start in many things but yeah.
hmm..im currently playing guitar right now hahaha
lawl i suck at blogs n crap aahah
well, im just hoping that vocal coach will reply to me soon
overall, i have to say. God is good. always =]
-by
Monday, May 11, 2009
well
everythigns been goign well =]
got a 94 on my alg 2 test.
although i missed 2 hws T_T
and i seem to never do my spanish hw =[ dangit!
ahahah
well..im trying to find a vocal coach.
my friend is trying to hook me up with his whose a professional opera singer.
i left her a message but she hasnt replied yet, but he said she'll definitely get to me soon for the lessons.
but overall everythings been good =]
God id good =]
by.
got a 94 on my alg 2 test.
although i missed 2 hws T_T
and i seem to never do my spanish hw =[ dangit!
ahahah
well..im trying to find a vocal coach.
my friend is trying to hook me up with his whose a professional opera singer.
i left her a message but she hasnt replied yet, but he said she'll definitely get to me soon for the lessons.
but overall everythings been good =]
God id good =]
by.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
=]
simple as that. =]
God continues to be amazing as He always is.
today's cell group was a bit different but i liked it.
ahhaha i walked to 7-11 with my friend sam and we both got hot dogs ns tuff so it was tight too =]
gonna sleep now
by.
God continues to be amazing as He always is.
today's cell group was a bit different but i liked it.
ahhaha i walked to 7-11 with my friend sam and we both got hot dogs ns tuff so it was tight too =]
gonna sleep now
by.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
late post
but whatever hahaha.
i ended up not playing open mic night tuesday lol.
but whatever hahaha.
singer bails out. i leave open mic night.
get about 15 texts from ppl saying good luck.
parents end up r getting me a vocal coach hahaha.
so its all good in the end =]
i feel like blessing someone ahhaha.
with money or something.
i gave 8 bucks to my friend earlier so he could get del taco.
and that was relly ausome ^__^
and i still wanna bless others hahaha.
lately ive been getting relly into cold war kids and other stuff like that.
thats so unlike the normal me ahhaah but shoot. theyre ausome =]
and other bands like doves and thursday hahaha.
overall.
God is good =]
He still is blessing me
providing me with oppurtunities and supporting me with His loving care.
to someone if youre reading this (youll know which one of you): 2 corinthians 4:16-18
i ended up not playing open mic night tuesday lol.
but whatever hahaha.
singer bails out. i leave open mic night.
get about 15 texts from ppl saying good luck.
parents end up r getting me a vocal coach hahaha.
so its all good in the end =]
i feel like blessing someone ahhaha.
with money or something.
i gave 8 bucks to my friend earlier so he could get del taco.
and that was relly ausome ^__^
and i still wanna bless others hahaha.
lately ive been getting relly into cold war kids and other stuff like that.
thats so unlike the normal me ahhaah but shoot. theyre ausome =]
and other bands like doves and thursday hahaha.
overall.
God is good =]
He still is blessing me
providing me with oppurtunities and supporting me with His loving care.
to someone if youre reading this (youll know which one of you): 2 corinthians 4:16-18
Monday, April 27, 2009
michael was right haha
if youve went back to my earlier posts where i said michael ill hold onto what youre saying hahaha.
well he told me the "silence" wouldnt last.
relly, me n my ex r just talking again and all.
ahahha.
well, its officially tuesday hahaa.
got cst ahhaa. alg2 lawl. and i gots to wake up at 5:50.
and afterschool i have a show lol.
well open mic night.
im playing belle, and the heart of life, with jon.
and if the moon fell down tongiht, with chris and luc. (with harmonica =])
3:30-5 sorta so yeah =] itll be tiiight! hahahaa
overall, God has been extremly good to me no joke.
He always is =]
i love Him ^__^
by.
well he told me the "silence" wouldnt last.
relly, me n my ex r just talking again and all.
ahahha.
well, its officially tuesday hahaa.
got cst ahhaa. alg2 lawl. and i gots to wake up at 5:50.
and afterschool i have a show lol.
well open mic night.
im playing belle, and the heart of life, with jon.
and if the moon fell down tongiht, with chris and luc. (with harmonica =])
3:30-5 sorta so yeah =] itll be tiiight! hahahaa
overall, God has been extremly good to me no joke.
He always is =]
i love Him ^__^
by.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
cstcstcstcst
gots no cst today =]
so happya hahaha.
i've noticed ive been eating alot less lately hahaa.
sometimes i'm even down to one meal a day,
but it's cuz like i just dont feel hungry sometimes u know?
well i gots to be at school in an hr or so hahaha. got pe -____-
its hot which is ausome, but i dont wanna sweat lawl.
well overall,
God is good. always =]
blessed me with another day.
so happya hahaha.
i've noticed ive been eating alot less lately hahaa.
sometimes i'm even down to one meal a day,
but it's cuz like i just dont feel hungry sometimes u know?
well i gots to be at school in an hr or so hahaha. got pe -____-
its hot which is ausome, but i dont wanna sweat lawl.
well overall,
God is good. always =]
blessed me with another day.
Monday, April 20, 2009
well
i made a new song sunday.
im practicing it right now =]
next tuesday gonna be playing at open mic night at walnut high lawl.
wonder what to play...
im practicing it right now =]
next tuesday gonna be playing at open mic night at walnut high lawl.
wonder what to play...
Saturday, April 11, 2009
deaf.
today i was hanging with mels. got lost. and my friend thomas picked me up =]
and dropped us off at puente. got size 24 dark tight pants at forever for 12.50 =]
they fit so well that i dont even need to sew them tighter which is really a first hahahaa.
well in the food court a deaf man came upp and placed stickers on the table wishing ppl would buy them cuz it would make his living.
and when he collected them cuz noone wanted any or were willlign to giving him money i felt bad.
or..i just wanted to bless him.
my friend mels alreyd bought me food.
i was blessed with jeans and cardigan and shoes previous days.
so our of heart i came up to him. gave him 5 dollars.
he was gonna give me stickers. but then i gestured him no you can keep it and smiled.
and he gestured relly?
and i nodded a yes and was like =]
and he was so happy.
i felt so good. gosh i need to start doing this more ahhaha.
my dad even told me i have a good heart.
motivation ^__^
cuz shoot. God already provides me, so why not share it?
God provides me for free.
i get free stuff. free money even if i have to work for it.
i still get money.
why not share it? hahahaa.not everyone has the same oppurtunities as others.
so i decided to give him that 5 =]
leaving me with only about 2 bucks.
but it was ausome.
i just realized..i should try to heal these ppl next time.
Jesus said in faith as God's children you can perform miracles and heal to testify Him to others.
and i know i can already do such things =]
faith. very storng.
size of a mustard seed could physically move a mountain.
and whether you believe it or not its based on faith.
but i believe i can do it.
cuz its God's word.
and God cannot lie.
i wanna pray for one next time too =]
doesnt matter if im in a mall and everyone looks at me funny.
well,
overall..
God is good =]
as always. always will be. always has been.
ahahah i love Him =]
and dropped us off at puente. got size 24 dark tight pants at forever for 12.50 =]
they fit so well that i dont even need to sew them tighter which is really a first hahahaa.
well in the food court a deaf man came upp and placed stickers on the table wishing ppl would buy them cuz it would make his living.
and when he collected them cuz noone wanted any or were willlign to giving him money i felt bad.
or..i just wanted to bless him.
my friend mels alreyd bought me food.
i was blessed with jeans and cardigan and shoes previous days.
so our of heart i came up to him. gave him 5 dollars.
he was gonna give me stickers. but then i gestured him no you can keep it and smiled.
and he gestured relly?
and i nodded a yes and was like =]
and he was so happy.
i felt so good. gosh i need to start doing this more ahhaha.
my dad even told me i have a good heart.
motivation ^__^
cuz shoot. God already provides me, so why not share it?
God provides me for free.
i get free stuff. free money even if i have to work for it.
i still get money.
why not share it? hahahaa.not everyone has the same oppurtunities as others.
so i decided to give him that 5 =]
leaving me with only about 2 bucks.
but it was ausome.
i just realized..i should try to heal these ppl next time.
Jesus said in faith as God's children you can perform miracles and heal to testify Him to others.
and i know i can already do such things =]
faith. very storng.
size of a mustard seed could physically move a mountain.
and whether you believe it or not its based on faith.
but i believe i can do it.
cuz its God's word.
and God cannot lie.
i wanna pray for one next time too =]
doesnt matter if im in a mall and everyone looks at me funny.
well,
overall..
God is good =]
as always. always will be. always has been.
ahahah i love Him =]
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
won;t someone honestly
stop this train? =]
nah continue it hahahha.
it feels pretty asuome everything.
God doing His work on me and everything.
i see Him doing His wonderful work =]
nah continue it hahahha.
it feels pretty asuome everything.
God doing His work on me and everything.
i see Him doing His wonderful work =]
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
what a day/.
so afterschool. my dad calls me immediately.
telling me my dog bit a 4 years old kid.
my dog was on a leash
but the kid was unsupervised.
the mother of the kid later came and said that its cuz she normally comes and plays with dogs.
ahahha.
the police officer says that its not out fault although theyre gonna try to give us a lawsuit.
well. any person knows a 4 yr old cant think for themselves.
therefore a parent should be there to supervise the child.
which wasnt the case.
and our dog was on a leash so yeah.
ahhahaa.
but not my parents want to get rid of the dog or move out of our neighborhood to give our dog a backyard since we dont live in a house.
and now i just realized i lost some moeny despite the fact ive been generous blessing others with money.
but oh well.
others need it more than me =]
and yeah.
im currently trying to write a song.
and my friend requested me to learn sweetheart by jimmy eat world.
and uhh...blink 182 is the bkcsjdbckjsdncsd xD
-bryan
telling me my dog bit a 4 years old kid.
my dog was on a leash
but the kid was unsupervised.
the mother of the kid later came and said that its cuz she normally comes and plays with dogs.
ahahha.
the police officer says that its not out fault although theyre gonna try to give us a lawsuit.
well. any person knows a 4 yr old cant think for themselves.
therefore a parent should be there to supervise the child.
which wasnt the case.
and our dog was on a leash so yeah.
ahhahaa.
but not my parents want to get rid of the dog or move out of our neighborhood to give our dog a backyard since we dont live in a house.
and now i just realized i lost some moeny despite the fact ive been generous blessing others with money.
but oh well.
others need it more than me =]
and yeah.
im currently trying to write a song.
and my friend requested me to learn sweetheart by jimmy eat world.
and uhh...blink 182 is the bkcsjdbckjsdncsd xD
-bryan
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
i wanna see
death cab. july 5th cjbsdkjCBSDKJCBSDMBCdsjcbsdjcbs,dmcbs.
and go to italy and australia. revisit taiwan and japan.
and yeah. fdgscfjksdbcsd.
and go to italy and australia. revisit taiwan and japan.
and yeah. fdgscfjksdbcsd.
Monday, March 30, 2009
i think i wanna
make a salmon.
^_________^
well todays school was very akward.
lots of questions.
and i have no idea wtheck they were tlaking about o_________o
LOL.
i think i like making new friends.
its coolio =]
overall. everythings all good.
Gods been good to me.
-bryan.
^_________^
well todays school was very akward.
lots of questions.
and i have no idea wtheck they were tlaking about o_________o
LOL.
i think i like making new friends.
its coolio =]
overall. everythings all good.
Gods been good to me.
-bryan.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
well.
i feel like a man who has cancer. cuz theres not much time left.
aimee just went to sleep.
we got into our like first argument ever.
and she said we can't be friends anymore.
we just can't.
ahhaha. or talk. or anything.
and that today would be our last day talking.
ahhahahaa.
we were to talk til 12. but she wanetd to go to sleep early.
and asked that.
tomorrow i would completely just. forget who she was never know that we've met before etc.
and wake up. suddenly knowing. that i'll have someone in Heaven waiting for me.
or.I'll be in Heaven waiting for someone.
lawl.
well she told me shes already falling for the guy she went to sadies with.
so yeah.
i pray she'll live a life guided by God.
ima go to sleep now.
ahahaha.
feel like a solider drafted to war. hahahaa
cuz tomorrow im just gonna not know anymore.
well. inmy cell group one time.
we did thigns you would give up. that became more intense.
the htigs that meant most to you.
ahhahaa.
i had a feeling this would happen.
i would be tested to give up someone/somehting most precious to me.
but its a good test. of love,faith, decision making. and who the focus is really on.
well.
God is love.
pray for me.
*i'll stick to what youve said michael.
ive come to know you say very wise things hahahaa.
that always happen ahhaa.
night.
-bryan.
aimee just went to sleep.
we got into our like first argument ever.
and she said we can't be friends anymore.
we just can't.
ahhaha. or talk. or anything.
and that today would be our last day talking.
ahhahahaa.
we were to talk til 12. but she wanetd to go to sleep early.
and asked that.
tomorrow i would completely just. forget who she was never know that we've met before etc.
and wake up. suddenly knowing. that i'll have someone in Heaven waiting for me.
or.I'll be in Heaven waiting for someone.
lawl.
well she told me shes already falling for the guy she went to sadies with.
so yeah.
i pray she'll live a life guided by God.
ima go to sleep now.
ahahaha.
feel like a solider drafted to war. hahahaa
cuz tomorrow im just gonna not know anymore.
well. inmy cell group one time.
we did thigns you would give up. that became more intense.
the htigs that meant most to you.
ahhahaa.
i had a feeling this would happen.
i would be tested to give up someone/somehting most precious to me.
but its a good test. of love,faith, decision making. and who the focus is really on.
well.
God is love.
pray for me.
*i'll stick to what youve said michael.
ive come to know you say very wise things hahahaa.
that always happen ahhaa.
night.
-bryan.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
sick
burn,
aahahahah i was sicked burned today.
for real. it hurt.
hahhaha but whatever.
philippians 4:4's stuck up my butt.
so yesterday in cell we learned alot. i love cell now (:
like more than ever!
ahahahahha.
binding and decreeing.
strong stuff there..
therefore i
decree that in the name of Lord Jesus nothign can touch me or others. that me and my community can reach out to our loved ones and our schools. be accountable of each other and grow strong as one body in Christ.
(:
aahahahah i was sicked burned today.
for real. it hurt.
hahhaha but whatever.
philippians 4:4's stuck up my butt.
so yesterday in cell we learned alot. i love cell now (:
like more than ever!
ahahahahha.
binding and decreeing.
strong stuff there..
therefore i
decree that in the name of Lord Jesus nothign can touch me or others. that me and my community can reach out to our loved ones and our schools. be accountable of each other and grow strong as one body in Christ.
(:
Monday, March 9, 2009
hmm.
iono. i think ive been sorta not relly ignoring.
just not talking to God as much as i usually do.
and you know like a best firend
you always want to talk to them or at least alot.
whether you can or cannot
but.
God's always next to me.
so yeah ^_____^
just not talking to God as much as i usually do.
and you know like a best firend
you always want to talk to them or at least alot.
whether you can or cannot
but.
God's always next to me.
so yeah ^_____^
Saturday, March 7, 2009
song.
“Cloud 9”
Black webs….
Let’s just pretend this never happened
It’ll heal step by step
If I can sing then let it cut me
You couldn’t find trust in me
Although it was all over
You just couldn’t stay closer…
Off your imagination
And pitiful last wish
I call it overrated
How did we end up like this?
I wouldn’t want it in the first place
If what would bring me down
Was your betraying kiss…?
Solitude
Not enough
But oh discovery
I discover
Your find and you find me
Lying next to you
Besides you
Tree and applesauce..
Like overgrown nails
Screams it digs it cuts
I bleed
And tissues scarred
Oh the water!
I love it but sweat it
I won’t forget
But now you’re not waking up…
I don’t want to think
That you’re not waking up
If you’ll hear me in...
Solitude
Not enough
But oh discovery
I discover
Your find and you find me
Lying next to you
Besides you
I find ourselves on cloud 9…
Black webs….
Let’s just pretend this never happened
It’ll heal step by step
If I can sing then let it cut me
You couldn’t find trust in me
Although it was all over
You just couldn’t stay closer…
Off your imagination
And pitiful last wish
I call it overrated
How did we end up like this?
I wouldn’t want it in the first place
If what would bring me down
Was your betraying kiss…?
Solitude
Not enough
But oh discovery
I discover
Your find and you find me
Lying next to you
Besides you
Tree and applesauce..
Like overgrown nails
Screams it digs it cuts
I bleed
And tissues scarred
Oh the water!
I love it but sweat it
I won’t forget
But now you’re not waking up…
I don’t want to think
That you’re not waking up
If you’ll hear me in...
Solitude
Not enough
But oh discovery
I discover
Your find and you find me
Lying next to you
Besides you
I find ourselves on cloud 9…
Thursday, March 5, 2009
today
was a frustrating day.
i hope i can do well on my tests tomorrow!
alg2 and chem.
ahhahaa.
i hope i can get into ap chem D:
or ap stats ahahhaa.
but even though.
praise God.
no matter where u r.
He wouldn't allow you to be tempted by something u couldnt handle.
(forgot what verse that is but i think its in 1 corinthians somewhere)
well i wrote a new song. for past the horizon. my new thing. and here goes the lyrics.
Black webs….
Let’s just pretend this never happened
It’ll heal step by step
Stick these guitar strings of heart (in my mouth)
If I can sing then let it cut me
You couldn’t find trust in me
Although it was all over
You just couldn’t stay closer…
Off your imagination
And pitiful last wish
I call it overrated
How did we end up like this?
I wouldn’t want it in the first place
If what would bring me down
Was your betraying kiss…?
So I’ll never wake up tonight
You told me to simply just sleep tight
And never wake up to my right
The picture of your face embeds in my pillow
Haunting me in my dreams
I’m living a nightmare
I’m trapped in your eyes.…
Oh dear, I'm turned to stone.
Lost love is love too
When I’m alone
Lost love is still love too
Write your name your name…
Dead love. Is still love too...
On my wrist…
So I can fall on it and break...
i hope i can do well on my tests tomorrow!
alg2 and chem.
ahhahaa.
i hope i can get into ap chem D:
or ap stats ahahhaa.
but even though.
praise God.
no matter where u r.
He wouldn't allow you to be tempted by something u couldnt handle.
(forgot what verse that is but i think its in 1 corinthians somewhere)
well i wrote a new song. for past the horizon. my new thing. and here goes the lyrics.
Black webs….
Let’s just pretend this never happened
It’ll heal step by step
Stick these guitar strings of heart (in my mouth)
If I can sing then let it cut me
You couldn’t find trust in me
Although it was all over
You just couldn’t stay closer…
Off your imagination
And pitiful last wish
I call it overrated
How did we end up like this?
I wouldn’t want it in the first place
If what would bring me down
Was your betraying kiss…?
So I’ll never wake up tonight
You told me to simply just sleep tight
And never wake up to my right
The picture of your face embeds in my pillow
Haunting me in my dreams
I’m living a nightmare
I’m trapped in your eyes.…
Oh dear, I'm turned to stone.
Lost love is love too
When I’m alone
Lost love is still love too
Write your name your name…
Dead love. Is still love too...
On my wrist…
So I can fall on it and break...
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
never
meant.
so me and my friend chris decided to start this acoustic thing hahaha.
woo!
we're working on one song right now.
we're trying to aim for stuff like hmm. the song never meant by owen/american football.
either one of the artists theyre the same ppl.
this morning i had a bloody nose on my way to school.
and i was eating macaroni and cheese inside the car too.
so when i reach school. the bell rings right when i reach the door and im marked tardy.
in the middle of alg2 class my bloody nose comes back and my teacher sends me to the nurse.
i walk outside and great. its raining.
straightened my hair for no reason now -________-
so obviously it was frustrating.
people were like.
dude r u mad?
u look relly pissed especially when u walked in.
ahhahaa.
i guess i could say i was mad.
not really.
i was just like..
whatever the devils trying to test me. bring me down.
because psalms 4:4 says in your anger do not sin.
haaha.
so i thought of job.
and i praised God no matter what was happening.
so then comes 6th period. chemistry.
donna kim is usually RELLY nice as a teacher.
but today my mychem teacher was just like. pmsing or something.
she gave the girl behind me a zero for looking at my paper and like yelled at my class.
and we didnt have a test or anything.
and when stamping work she SLAMMED the stamp ahahahaha.
so it was ehh.
but whatever.
i just made about a lb of bacon ate an apple and some potstickers and mmm im satisfied (:
God continues to bless me so much.
God is good.
He is ausome.
God is love.
I have decreed in His name that today would be a good day.
and it has been (:
amen.
so me and my friend chris decided to start this acoustic thing hahaha.
woo!
we're working on one song right now.
we're trying to aim for stuff like hmm. the song never meant by owen/american football.
either one of the artists theyre the same ppl.
this morning i had a bloody nose on my way to school.
and i was eating macaroni and cheese inside the car too.
so when i reach school. the bell rings right when i reach the door and im marked tardy.
in the middle of alg2 class my bloody nose comes back and my teacher sends me to the nurse.
i walk outside and great. its raining.
straightened my hair for no reason now -________-
so obviously it was frustrating.
people were like.
dude r u mad?
u look relly pissed especially when u walked in.
ahhahaa.
i guess i could say i was mad.
not really.
i was just like..
whatever the devils trying to test me. bring me down.
because psalms 4:4 says in your anger do not sin.
haaha.
so i thought of job.
and i praised God no matter what was happening.
so then comes 6th period. chemistry.
donna kim is usually RELLY nice as a teacher.
but today my mychem teacher was just like. pmsing or something.
she gave the girl behind me a zero for looking at my paper and like yelled at my class.
and we didnt have a test or anything.
and when stamping work she SLAMMED the stamp ahahahaha.
so it was ehh.
but whatever.
i just made about a lb of bacon ate an apple and some potstickers and mmm im satisfied (:
God continues to bless me so much.
God is good.
He is ausome.
God is love.
I have decreed in His name that today would be a good day.
and it has been (:
amen.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
so my friend brandon says.
play for God.
and youre skills in guitar will truly increase.
amazing.,
i made 3 songs in like these past 2 days that i actually like. hahahaha.
(:
can't wait for cell tomorrow >___<
and youre skills in guitar will truly increase.
amazing.,
i made 3 songs in like these past 2 days that i actually like. hahahaha.
(:
can't wait for cell tomorrow >___<
Sunday, February 22, 2009
experience.
so fridays house i was at mels house. (melody)
and i had the craziest spiritual experience thing that God tested me on. all from a text.hahahaah iand it last til morning the next day.
im too lazy to type everything out so ill tell it at cell group (:
but like i got an in flames cd. come clarity.
i seriously love the artwork in there. derek hess is amazing.
hahahaa.
and plus. in flames. amazing band (:
and i also made a new friend over the weekend.
shes very spastic crazy and random. ^________^
and i miss beavis man ):
no homo...
ive been eating relly unhealthy lately ive noticed.
nothing but pizza and fast food these past 2 months.
just had a lb of bacon.
and havent been to the gym in proly a month or more now.
i struggled during my 30 pushups i did randomly at home T__T
lame.
physical fitness testing is this week too.
but oh well.
and i have an alg2 test too ):
dangit!
but who cares. God blesses me alot with so many different things (:
i love Him so much.
even at my darkest.
i love Him.
and i had the craziest spiritual experience thing that God tested me on. all from a text.hahahaah iand it last til morning the next day.
im too lazy to type everything out so ill tell it at cell group (:
but like i got an in flames cd. come clarity.
i seriously love the artwork in there. derek hess is amazing.
hahahaa.
and plus. in flames. amazing band (:
and i also made a new friend over the weekend.
shes very spastic crazy and random. ^________^
and i miss beavis man ):
no homo...
ive been eating relly unhealthy lately ive noticed.
nothing but pizza and fast food these past 2 months.
just had a lb of bacon.
and havent been to the gym in proly a month or more now.
i struggled during my 30 pushups i did randomly at home T__T
lame.
physical fitness testing is this week too.
but oh well.
and i have an alg2 test too ):
dangit!
but who cares. God blesses me alot with so many different things (:
i love Him so much.
even at my darkest.
i love Him.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
i need to scream
so nobody will understand me.
as i say.
school is a walk through hell.
but its not burning me.
im untouchable.
jk,
^_________________________________^
ahahahaha i'm bored lol.
everyones all going up to me like saying stuff like.
i herd the news.
about you and aimee.
etc.
and i'm like. obviously you haven;t herd all of it LOL.
we just try to lead a Godly relationship with no lusting. thats all.
well God is good first of all.
i love talking to michael about alot of stuff.
especially during pe when were not at cell.
He surely blessed me today.
especially since i got cupcakes from crystal
(theyre CRAZY good thanks (: )
which made my day ausomer
and yeah >___<
i think the funniestthing that happened to me today was someone who i don't know randomly iming me saying.
how come u dont kiss aimee?
see i kiss my cousin all the time normally.
and we hug and kiss.
and i love her.
and i was like.
uhm...thats your cousin.
if thats how you greet your family..
and the person was like WELL I HOLD HANDS WITH HER and all this other stuff in caps.
and i was like. are you mad at me? for not kissing aimee? leading a Godly relationship here.
and then the person signed off.
it was weird.
as i say.
school is a walk through hell.
but its not burning me.
im untouchable.
jk,
^_________________________________^
ahahahaha i'm bored lol.
everyones all going up to me like saying stuff like.
i herd the news.
about you and aimee.
etc.
and i'm like. obviously you haven;t herd all of it LOL.
we just try to lead a Godly relationship with no lusting. thats all.
well God is good first of all.
i love talking to michael about alot of stuff.
especially during pe when were not at cell.
He surely blessed me today.
especially since i got cupcakes from crystal
(theyre CRAZY good thanks (: )
which made my day ausomer
and yeah >___<
i think the funniestthing that happened to me today was someone who i don't know randomly iming me saying.
how come u dont kiss aimee?
see i kiss my cousin all the time normally.
and we hug and kiss.
and i love her.
and i was like.
uhm...thats your cousin.
if thats how you greet your family..
and the person was like WELL I HOLD HANDS WITH HER and all this other stuff in caps.
and i was like. are you mad at me? for not kissing aimee? leading a Godly relationship here.
and then the person signed off.
it was weird.
Monday, February 16, 2009
weekend.
i had the gnarliest weekend ever thanks to melody (:
hahahhaa.
and nathan ^_____^
but yeah.
you get the point..i hope.
lol.
well what really hit me.
not really was just.
how you could lose a friend over buying a guitar.
i dont get it.
you buy a guitar.
friend gets mad at you for not being "smart"
and going to his favorite guitar place and you never talk again ever.
well Jesus once said that the world will hate you because of me.
and those who go through such things because of me is surely blessed.
2009 is the yr of shaking off things from your life.
i decree that God's placing me where i need to be.
hahahhaa.
and nathan ^_____^
but yeah.
you get the point..i hope.
lol.
well what really hit me.
not really was just.
how you could lose a friend over buying a guitar.
i dont get it.
you buy a guitar.
friend gets mad at you for not being "smart"
and going to his favorite guitar place and you never talk again ever.
well Jesus once said that the world will hate you because of me.
and those who go through such things because of me is surely blessed.
2009 is the yr of shaking off things from your life.
i decree that God's placing me where i need to be.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
i
decree that today we will be lifted up. taken to a new chapter and that we are untouchable because we are the children of God. nothing can harm us or bring us down. Satan will be away from us and we will be replenished with His word. that we will restore our families and loved ones and others. i decree in God's name that we will be give love and a heart for others because without love..that is God. we are nothing.
(:
so thats what we learned in cell group yesterday.
weird day. didnt like that day.
but cell group made me (:
haahhaa.
i know it makes no sense LOL.
well so now its morning.
and my moms relly mad at me.
she was just yelling and throwing things and i was like.
what?
LOL.
so yeah.
but nothings gonna happen hahaha.
im not gonna worry.
ima rejoice.
philippians 4:4.
(:
so thats what we learned in cell group yesterday.
weird day. didnt like that day.
but cell group made me (:
haahhaa.
i know it makes no sense LOL.
well so now its morning.
and my moms relly mad at me.
she was just yelling and throwing things and i was like.
what?
LOL.
so yeah.
but nothings gonna happen hahaha.
im not gonna worry.
ima rejoice.
philippians 4:4.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
whatever tomorrow brings
i'll be there.
so like today at school after 1rst during the passing period one of my contacts came out.
and i had such a huge headache doing pe and spanish from it that during spanish i just took off the other contact.
ahahhaa.
it was such a pain going through the days like that.
i became really..
hmm.
angered easily.
dangit.
psalms 4:4:in anger do not sin.
but i threw a pen at someone who insulted me ):
poop.
hahahaha.
i failed that test >___<
but its okay at least i learned not to do that the hard way.
i mean at leats i learned.
^___________^
today was an emotional journey for me though.
i was tired so i got crazy then needy and everything.
and i didn't see aimee like alot today but oh well.
only uhm after 1rst and after 5. and lunch.
at least she went to geometry tutoring to get helped afterschool.
and now i want to write a new song.
but ill epically fail like always.
well i just got my guitar.
i ended up getting myself a good martin those behind the counter ones.
i met a lady there with his son.
and they thougth i was in college.
well i talked to his mom and the manager (whose CRAZY ausome)
and iono.
there's always a reason why i dislike talking to alot of kids of my age group.
i prefer talking with adults.
i talked to alot of mid aged people and everything and one mother told me i was really mature. which was a gift.
and i was like.
what?(in my head)
and i laughed gave a smile and said thanks.
maybe its the God they see in me.
because He can shine through us you know?
but i never knew sam ash could give an experience.
and im loving God fkwjrbfwkdjbf sosososomuch haahha.
notbecause he blessed me with a guitar.
cuz thats sad if i only gives thanks when im up.
but yeah.
any ideas on names?
ima name it either: aimee, monique, lucille, lenore.
which one?
unless you got some suggestions!
so like today at school after 1rst during the passing period one of my contacts came out.
and i had such a huge headache doing pe and spanish from it that during spanish i just took off the other contact.
ahahhaa.
it was such a pain going through the days like that.
i became really..
hmm.
angered easily.
dangit.
psalms 4:4:in anger do not sin.
but i threw a pen at someone who insulted me ):
poop.
hahahaha.
i failed that test >___<
but its okay at least i learned not to do that the hard way.
i mean at leats i learned.
^___________^
today was an emotional journey for me though.
i was tired so i got crazy then needy and everything.
and i didn't see aimee like alot today but oh well.
only uhm after 1rst and after 5. and lunch.
at least she went to geometry tutoring to get helped afterschool.
and now i want to write a new song.
but ill epically fail like always.
well i just got my guitar.
i ended up getting myself a good martin those behind the counter ones.
i met a lady there with his son.
and they thougth i was in college.
well i talked to his mom and the manager (whose CRAZY ausome)
and iono.
there's always a reason why i dislike talking to alot of kids of my age group.
i prefer talking with adults.
i talked to alot of mid aged people and everything and one mother told me i was really mature. which was a gift.
and i was like.
what?(in my head)
and i laughed gave a smile and said thanks.
maybe its the God they see in me.
because He can shine through us you know?
but i never knew sam ash could give an experience.
and im loving God fkwjrbfwkdjbf sosososomuch haahha.
notbecause he blessed me with a guitar.
cuz thats sad if i only gives thanks when im up.
but yeah.
any ideas on names?
ima name it either: aimee, monique, lucille, lenore.
which one?
unless you got some suggestions!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
it's been awhile since ive been posting one of these
sorry.
hahahaha.
so right now my most favorite song of the moment is never meant-american football. or by owen. hahaha. good bands (:
well like i got my alg2 test back.
and i got a 25/30 >___<
i thought i failed (:
thank God ^_______________________^
so im trying to get rid of my gambling problem.
although most of the time i would win.
its not the right way to be dealing with God's money hahaha.
T________T
so yeah.
i think i might be getting that new guitar tonight (:
my birthdays on saturday >_________________<
and yes its on valentines day >______________________________________<
hahahaha.
im lame xD
hahahaha.
so right now my most favorite song of the moment is never meant-american football. or by owen. hahaha. good bands (:
well like i got my alg2 test back.
and i got a 25/30 >___<
i thought i failed (:
thank God ^_______________________^
so im trying to get rid of my gambling problem.
although most of the time i would win.
its not the right way to be dealing with God's money hahaha.
T________T
so yeah.
i think i might be getting that new guitar tonight (:
my birthdays on saturday >_________________<
and yes its on valentines day >______________________________________<
hahahaha.
im lame xD
Friday, February 6, 2009
stomachache ):
hmph. xD
hahahaha it hurts.
sorry hahaha.
well like today it rained alot alot alot alot alot.
and i had an alg2 test that i think i did RELLY bad on ):
dangit.
well its a weird journey im on right now.
i think God has placed me in an area where i seirously need to realize ive grown up.
sorta like when youre 13 you seem to still be like 10. realizing youre growing old...er.
hahahaha. so yeah its weird.
>______________<
but yeah.
i like the verse 1 corinthians 3:1-2
hahahah. and 1 corinthians is a good book indeed.
and im reading genesis with aimee btw.
xD
hahahaha it hurts.
sorry hahaha.
well like today it rained alot alot alot alot alot.
and i had an alg2 test that i think i did RELLY bad on ):
dangit.
well its a weird journey im on right now.
i think God has placed me in an area where i seirously need to realize ive grown up.
sorta like when youre 13 you seem to still be like 10. realizing youre growing old...er.
hahahaha. so yeah its weird.
>______________<
but yeah.
i like the verse 1 corinthians 3:1-2
hahahah. and 1 corinthians is a good book indeed.
and im reading genesis with aimee btw.
xD
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
neck.
this mornign i woke up and my neck hurt so bad i couldnt even turn my head left or right or up or down without it hurting me ALOT.
but then it got better throughout the day.
and its an expereince to share at cell group (:
so yeah
hahahaha.ive been reading 1 corinthians lately and wow i love that book.
chapter 3:1-2
For i cannot call you spiritual because you are worldy. i gave you milk not solid food because you were not ready for it.
-1 corinthians 3:1-2
this is all by memory btw so yeah ahahhaa. so if i made a minor error >_______<
but i think im being given a huge test this week.
ive suddenly started to be tempted into being the person i used to be.
having alot of malice and disturbing thoughts in my mind
ive become a bit impatient in the mind.
but its been under control so far.
i hope i can overcome this hahahaha.
its a crazy test really i just don't know how to put it.
a Teen Challenge for Spiritual restoration and its a camp thingy also for 4 months.
so i pray for him whoever reading (:
oh yeah and at school i think God added another person on my list to reach out to.
so yeah hahaha. its funny how He places people around me.
but yeah hahaha God works in mysterious ways just like how Michael told me!
but then it got better throughout the day.
and its an expereince to share at cell group (:
so yeah
hahahaha.ive been reading 1 corinthians lately and wow i love that book.
chapter 3:1-2
For i cannot call you spiritual because you are worldy. i gave you milk not solid food because you were not ready for it.
-1 corinthians 3:1-2
this is all by memory btw so yeah ahahhaa. so if i made a minor error >_______<
but i think im being given a huge test this week.
ive suddenly started to be tempted into being the person i used to be.
having alot of malice and disturbing thoughts in my mind
ive become a bit impatient in the mind.
but its been under control so far.
i hope i can overcome this hahahaha.
its a crazy test really i just don't know how to put it.
a Teen Challenge for Spiritual restoration and its a camp thingy also for 4 months.
so i pray for him whoever reading (:
oh yeah and at school i think God added another person on my list to reach out to.
so yeah hahaha. its funny how He places people around me.
but yeah hahaha God works in mysterious ways just like how Michael told me!
Monday, February 2, 2009
D:
so lately im been doing fine
i got 6 n a half wrong on my spanish test though ):
but lately ive been very impatient.
but its mostly cuz im irritated from superallergies which makes me wanna punch people who just wont stop talking especially in pe ):
sorry.
but like it also seems like I'm a bit further from God than i used to be.
but i assume its one of those tests where He has to stand back a bit instead of holding me all the time since im growing.
sorta like what pastor mike said with his child hahahaa.
eventualy you have to let them walk on their own not be afraid to fall down because youre still there. but youre teaching them to learn how to get up.
yeah?
i guess hahaha.
i got 6 n a half wrong on my spanish test though ):
but lately ive been very impatient.
but its mostly cuz im irritated from superallergies which makes me wanna punch people who just wont stop talking especially in pe ):
sorry.
but like it also seems like I'm a bit further from God than i used to be.
but i assume its one of those tests where He has to stand back a bit instead of holding me all the time since im growing.
sorta like what pastor mike said with his child hahahaa.
eventualy you have to let them walk on their own not be afraid to fall down because youre still there. but youre teaching them to learn how to get up.
yeah?
i guess hahaha.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
and i stand there like a soldier
with my foot upon its chest.
so last night we learned in cell
about offensive and defensive thinking.
i gotta start balancing em out!
maybe ill be successful that way xD
actually im pretty sure i will.
otherwise it wouldnt have been taught.
so last night we learned in cell
about offensive and defensive thinking.
i gotta start balancing em out!
maybe ill be successful that way xD
actually im pretty sure i will.
otherwise it wouldnt have been taught.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
phone.
so lunch is at 12.
and i was texting my friend beavis in haughptmanns class talking bad about haughptmann.
LOL.
so, at 11:57, mr. haughptmann saw my phone on my lap.
and took it away T___T
woow.
xD
i guess its what i get for talking bad.
hahahaa.
i should know better than that ):
but yeah.
so i went to go see mr. jacks afterschool and the FIRST warning is a DETENTION.
so now i have detention next wednesday.
i should relly think before i act!
and i was texting my friend beavis in haughptmanns class talking bad about haughptmann.
LOL.
so, at 11:57, mr. haughptmann saw my phone on my lap.
and took it away T___T
woow.
xD
i guess its what i get for talking bad.
hahahaa.
i should know better than that ):
but yeah.
so i went to go see mr. jacks afterschool and the FIRST warning is a DETENTION.
so now i have detention next wednesday.
i should relly think before i act!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
walk
this way.
aerosmith.
hahaha so like i think the weirdest thing that happened was that i accidently kissed aimee today when we're trying not to kiss.
hahahah.
T____________T
it was accidental!
and in elmores class too!
i forgotteded ):
i couldnt believe it.
but i guess it was my test.
galatians 6:1!
so yeah hahaha.
other than that everything was all good
we had late start and i ate about a lb of bacon for breakfast and an apple (:
and yeah!
here i am
xD
matt just left my house and yeah.
we were perfecting our song.
aerosmith.
hahaha so like i think the weirdest thing that happened was that i accidently kissed aimee today when we're trying not to kiss.
hahahah.
T____________T
it was accidental!
and in elmores class too!
i forgotteded ):
i couldnt believe it.
but i guess it was my test.
galatians 6:1!
so yeah hahaha.
other than that everything was all good
we had late start and i ate about a lb of bacon for breakfast and an apple (:
and yeah!
here i am
xD
matt just left my house and yeah.
we were perfecting our song.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
late start.
so aimee told me to be there 8:20
and she comes at 9ish T____T
i still need to get used to the filipino timing of the filipino ppl xD
theyre always on there own time and end up being late!
that was the lesson form my friend christian hernando haahha
welli got really bad allergies today
cuz we played football for pe ):<
i hate football.
hahaha thats right.
i hate football xD
and 5th period was really bad cuz my allergies from football
i couldnt even pay attention and my nose was all stuffeded
well i brought my guitar to school
which was kinda boring hahaha
coming back home after getting picked up my dad got the report
and i got all a's and b's!
woot (:
hahahaha.
and now im just really hungry hahaha.
thinking about walking to tacobell cross street my house..hmm.
and she comes at 9ish T____T
i still need to get used to the filipino timing of the filipino ppl xD
theyre always on there own time and end up being late!
that was the lesson form my friend christian hernando haahha
welli got really bad allergies today
cuz we played football for pe ):<
i hate football.
hahaha thats right.
i hate football xD
and 5th period was really bad cuz my allergies from football
i couldnt even pay attention and my nose was all stuffeded
well i brought my guitar to school
which was kinda boring hahaha
coming back home after getting picked up my dad got the report
and i got all a's and b's!
woot (:
hahahaha.
and now im just really hungry hahaha.
thinking about walking to tacobell cross street my house..hmm.
Monday, January 26, 2009
purify my heart
cleanse me from my sin
so like im still sick T____T
school was cwaaaaaazy!
alg2 teacher taught properties of logarithms
and i was like
o_______________________________o
well,
ive really been blessed today ^___^
and tested from the Word ive read.
especially uhm
philippian 4:8
and galations 6:1
hahahaa. well i got a new capo and bought a new Bible
so i can pass down the old one i have to aimee, since her Bible is only the new testament with psalms and proversb >_____<
and then i bought this book called the five people you meet in heaven.
its a fiction about this guy named eddie.
not gonna say anymore.
its just really good.
not long either.
i also bought the book the curious case of benjamin button hahaha.
hopefully ill be able to finish these.
cuz i still have to finish dracula, michael phelps autobio, bigg russ & me and yeah hahaa.
so like im still sick T____T
school was cwaaaaaazy!
alg2 teacher taught properties of logarithms
and i was like
o_______________________________o
well,
ive really been blessed today ^___^
and tested from the Word ive read.
especially uhm
philippian 4:8
and galations 6:1
hahahaa. well i got a new capo and bought a new Bible
so i can pass down the old one i have to aimee, since her Bible is only the new testament with psalms and proversb >_____<
and then i bought this book called the five people you meet in heaven.
its a fiction about this guy named eddie.
not gonna say anymore.
its just really good.
not long either.
i also bought the book the curious case of benjamin button hahaha.
hopefully ill be able to finish these.
cuz i still have to finish dracula, michael phelps autobio, bigg russ & me and yeah hahaa.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
throat.
so last night i had to eat with relatives
most disturbing thing ever.
my uncle was dating his girlfriend there.
and cousin brought his girlfriend there.
my parnets were joking aroound alot.
and i didnt feel well T____T
my throat was hurting alot alot alot alot alot!
and then after the dinner i was so tired and i was just about ready to drop dead.
and then they took me to a karaoke place ):
im not even filipino!
so in the end i went to my cousins house nearby (a dif one)
yes (:<
i watched slumdog milliondare with my cool uncle
it was such a good movie omg...
and then i told my friend mels about it this morning
it was gnarly
and hmm. im still singing refiners fire in the shower xD
im just afraid i might get tired of it soon ):
and yeah hahahah.well God is still continuing to bless me in my life.
i love Him (:
i watched the trailer for passion of the Christ on youtube and almost cried btw T____________________________________________T
i went something like...oooohhhwaAAaAAAaAaaAAAaaaaAAAAAAaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
most disturbing thing ever.
my uncle was dating his girlfriend there.
and cousin brought his girlfriend there.
my parnets were joking aroound alot.
and i didnt feel well T____T
my throat was hurting alot alot alot alot alot!
and then after the dinner i was so tired and i was just about ready to drop dead.
and then they took me to a karaoke place ):
im not even filipino!
so in the end i went to my cousins house nearby (a dif one)
yes (:<
i watched slumdog milliondare with my cool uncle
it was such a good movie omg...
and then i told my friend mels about it this morning
it was gnarly
and hmm. im still singing refiners fire in the shower xD
im just afraid i might get tired of it soon ):
and yeah hahahah.well God is still continuing to bless me in my life.
i love Him (:
i watched the trailer for passion of the Christ on youtube and almost cried btw T____________________________________________T
i went something like...oooohhhwaAAaAAAaAaaAAAaaaaAAAAAAaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
friends.
in order to have a good friend.
you must take the initiative to be the good friend yourself.
hahaha.
i screwed up between me and my friend matt and im sorry about that.
funny thing is yesterday at cell group we learned about these things.
but these things happen for a good purpose.
good reason.
to grow.
shake off some things.
so He can place me where i need to be.
you must take the initiative to be the good friend yourself.
hahaha.
i screwed up between me and my friend matt and im sorry about that.
funny thing is yesterday at cell group we learned about these things.
but these things happen for a good purpose.
good reason.
to grow.
shake off some things.
so He can place me where i need to be.
Friday, January 23, 2009
wooooow.
so this morning i decided to straighten my hair.
and then it rained.
T_____________________T
woooooow.
all that for nothing.
ahaha it got curly again
and then i looked like dirty skater xD
or iono. i looked like somehting.
just not clean and neat hahaha.
well me and my friend matt finished a song.
so now we just need to perfect singing and playing it.
we're working on another song now.
but he has strep throat right now ):
so yeah.
now if i could swim.
id swimout to you in the ocean.
swim out to where you are floating
in the dark.
well im off to cell group again!
ill leave my testimony after its done.
and then it rained.
T_____________________T
woooooow.
all that for nothing.
ahaha it got curly again
and then i looked like dirty skater xD
or iono. i looked like somehting.
just not clean and neat hahaha.
well me and my friend matt finished a song.
so now we just need to perfect singing and playing it.
we're working on another song now.
but he has strep throat right now ):
so yeah.
now if i could swim.
id swimout to you in the ocean.
swim out to where you are floating
in the dark.
well im off to cell group again!
ill leave my testimony after its done.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
man.
ive never relly eaten chocolate or liked sweet my entire life.
and this morning before school i really wanted something to eat.
so i grabbed a crunch and ate it.
woooow...
now i know why they say the time of the month is as if girls r on a whole bucket of chocolate.
never.eating.chocolate.again.
it gets me to be needy and wanting to be close with someone.
especially when i hugged jeffrey afterschool for like 2 minutes straight of him trying to get out of my super bear hugs xD
so one hting i learned today.
chocolate: tastes bad, hella fattening, and it gets yer hormones acting funny.
i even wanted to give michael a bear hug for like 30 minutes. no homo.
but i dunno. the wonders of endorphins.
-___________________________________-
well i've been really getting into worship songs and slow acoustic songs lately.
relly weird hahaha.
afterschool i even sang some with aimee.
i sang to her bed (luckily my sidekick had internet to check up the lyrics while she wasnt looking xD)
and uhm..i want it that way, and that one n*sync song, and refiners fire.
oh and so sick too.
hahaha.
weird day.
gotta thank God for everything ^_______^
He was amazing to me today.
my dad dropped me off at a restaraunt after school even and made me walk back home cuz he was tired.
so im glad i was even kept safe. (:
and this morning before school i really wanted something to eat.
so i grabbed a crunch and ate it.
woooow...
now i know why they say the time of the month is as if girls r on a whole bucket of chocolate.
never.eating.chocolate.again.
it gets me to be needy and wanting to be close with someone.
especially when i hugged jeffrey afterschool for like 2 minutes straight of him trying to get out of my super bear hugs xD
so one hting i learned today.
chocolate: tastes bad, hella fattening, and it gets yer hormones acting funny.
i even wanted to give michael a bear hug for like 30 minutes. no homo.
but i dunno. the wonders of endorphins.
-___________________________________-
well i've been really getting into worship songs and slow acoustic songs lately.
relly weird hahaha.
afterschool i even sang some with aimee.
i sang to her bed (luckily my sidekick had internet to check up the lyrics while she wasnt looking xD)
and uhm..i want it that way, and that one n*sync song, and refiners fire.
oh and so sick too.
hahaha.
weird day.
gotta thank God for everything ^_______^
He was amazing to me today.
my dad dropped me off at a restaraunt after school even and made me walk back home cuz he was tired.
so im glad i was even kept safe. (:
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
booboo
so like today at pe i jumped up onto this ledge. and i missed. and it cut both my legs pretty bad. it was bleeding quite some. and i just put my jeans right over them too hahaha. i hope i dont get an infection.
so like...lobsters. xD
hahahaa. i dont get the thing about lobsters.
sometimes im told or am being given a complaint about others. and then i see a lobster do the same thing.
please dont do that u lobsters!
but i guess were all lobsters arent we?
in different ways whether we realize it or not.
for src we still had a sub.
since its a new semester hahaha.
the sub mr demonico made us write an essay on who we admire and why.
i was gonna put God. but i was afraid i wouldve gotten in trouble.
but dangit i shouldnt be ashamed ):
but i put John Mayer and how he released no such thing.
and witing on the world to change. the htings happened in his life with the bittersweet song daughters. hes a very smart person. try to learn a bit and if you play guitar u know? try to expand some stuff off his stuff. it helps.
so like i just realized one thing i really dislike.
when random people add you on myspace ahahaa.
it just like hit me.
whats the point?
sorry.
Jacoby says its great for networking and knowing people in the future
but its not like youll see them and theyll help you out with cash or a job or something.
i should start putting my profile on private and stuff.
so like...lobsters. xD
hahahaa. i dont get the thing about lobsters.
sometimes im told or am being given a complaint about others. and then i see a lobster do the same thing.
please dont do that u lobsters!
but i guess were all lobsters arent we?
in different ways whether we realize it or not.
for src we still had a sub.
since its a new semester hahaha.
the sub mr demonico made us write an essay on who we admire and why.
i was gonna put God. but i was afraid i wouldve gotten in trouble.
but dangit i shouldnt be ashamed ):
but i put John Mayer and how he released no such thing.
and witing on the world to change. the htings happened in his life with the bittersweet song daughters. hes a very smart person. try to learn a bit and if you play guitar u know? try to expand some stuff off his stuff. it helps.
so like i just realized one thing i really dislike.
when random people add you on myspace ahahaa.
it just like hit me.
whats the point?
sorry.
Jacoby says its great for networking and knowing people in the future
but its not like youll see them and theyll help you out with cash or a job or something.
i should start putting my profile on private and stuff.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
test.
so like today was a big test for me hahaha.
after all the things thats happened.
i finally see aimee.
its amazing cuz all these things happened over aim and the phone and stuff hahaha.
well i go to school and i guess everythings sorta the same.
just no kissing or anything.
but thats fine with me ^_____^
unlike her. its time.
so its like shes on a whole bucket of chocolate everyday so yeah hahaha. sowie! xD
well i got my finals grade.
i was the best group for my english final, and got an a on the test before it too, and i only end up with an 83 ): as my overall grade.
for algebra II i got an 85 as my final grade. which is better than my previous like 79%
ahahha and chem. dangit. it lowered my b+ to a b T___T
the rest were a's though
which were comp apps, and of course, pe.
my pe teacher today was like pmsing though.
hes usually really chill and mellow, but its a small class of like 15 now or less
and all the real like supposedly "cool" people and athletic people transferred out.
im just the "lomg haired guy"
hahahaaha. i guess thats why hes pissed. he got mad at like the entire class except for the girls.
but its okay. my friend says hes just mad cuz his wife wasnt dtf last night.
which sorta seems to make sense.
well like Beavis said,
thank Jesus ^____^
today was a good day
currently playing: miserable at best-mayday parade
after all the things thats happened.
i finally see aimee.
its amazing cuz all these things happened over aim and the phone and stuff hahaha.
well i go to school and i guess everythings sorta the same.
just no kissing or anything.
but thats fine with me ^_____^
unlike her. its time.
so its like shes on a whole bucket of chocolate everyday so yeah hahaha. sowie! xD
well i got my finals grade.
i was the best group for my english final, and got an a on the test before it too, and i only end up with an 83 ): as my overall grade.
for algebra II i got an 85 as my final grade. which is better than my previous like 79%
ahahha and chem. dangit. it lowered my b+ to a b T___T
the rest were a's though
which were comp apps, and of course, pe.
my pe teacher today was like pmsing though.
hes usually really chill and mellow, but its a small class of like 15 now or less
and all the real like supposedly "cool" people and athletic people transferred out.
im just the "lomg haired guy"
hahahaaha. i guess thats why hes pissed. he got mad at like the entire class except for the girls.
but its okay. my friend says hes just mad cuz his wife wasnt dtf last night.
which sorta seems to make sense.
well like Beavis said,
thank Jesus ^____^
today was a good day
currently playing: miserable at best-mayday parade
Monday, January 19, 2009
when You are with me...
im free.
So everythings all good now sorta hahaha.
talked on the phone with Aimee again. hahaha.
ouch! kick in the nuts.
but i shouldnt let feelings take care of me.
lean not on your own understanding.
we mostly trust our feelings.
but what happens when those feelings go away you know?
thats why love isnt a feeling.
sacrifice.
God...wow youre so amazing.
John 3:16/
ahahah dang i just felt like wanting to cry.
i guess sacrificng all the lust me and aimee had.
was the right thing to do.
tolead a Godly relationship.
just building each other up and yeah ahhaa.
its kinda funny now. cuz i sorta look up to her now.
in the course of one day.
she followed what God taught her through me.
and wow its just crazy.
now im the one being spat verses experiences and stuff at.
but i like that. what i need for me to grow.
so ill try my best t not let feelings get the best out of me.
cuz i really felt like posting this.
looking at the new default.
by ourselves.
hahahahaa oh well.
when Job's wife told Job why he basically still loved god and stuff and how Job shouldnt because God allowed the devil to test him.
Job basically told her, so youre saying to only praise God when He is giving you things? and blessing you?
shoot i learned this the hard way.
i know everythign that is spoken in cell.
were gonna be tested on.
cuz when Beavis said this, it wasn;t like the main thing he was teaching but,
i learned i gotta take everything in. not just the main things.
cuz theyre all as equally important.
we'll be tested on everything
spoken there.
praise God whether or not He's still blessing you.
in the midst of problems rejoice (philippians 4:4)
becasue your know after every problem theres a promise.
blessing after every storm.
testimony after a test.
So everythings all good now sorta hahaha.
talked on the phone with Aimee again. hahaha.
ouch! kick in the nuts.
but i shouldnt let feelings take care of me.
lean not on your own understanding.
we mostly trust our feelings.
but what happens when those feelings go away you know?
thats why love isnt a feeling.
sacrifice.
God...wow youre so amazing.
John 3:16/
ahahah dang i just felt like wanting to cry.
i guess sacrificng all the lust me and aimee had.
was the right thing to do.
tolead a Godly relationship.
just building each other up and yeah ahhaa.
its kinda funny now. cuz i sorta look up to her now.
in the course of one day.
she followed what God taught her through me.
and wow its just crazy.
now im the one being spat verses experiences and stuff at.
but i like that. what i need for me to grow.
so ill try my best t not let feelings get the best out of me.
cuz i really felt like posting this.
looking at the new default.
by ourselves.
hahahahaa oh well.
when Job's wife told Job why he basically still loved god and stuff and how Job shouldnt because God allowed the devil to test him.
Job basically told her, so youre saying to only praise God when He is giving you things? and blessing you?
shoot i learned this the hard way.
i know everythign that is spoken in cell.
were gonna be tested on.
cuz when Beavis said this, it wasn;t like the main thing he was teaching but,
i learned i gotta take everything in. not just the main things.
cuz theyre all as equally important.
we'll be tested on everything
spoken there.
praise God whether or not He's still blessing you.
in the midst of problems rejoice (philippians 4:4)
becasue your know after every problem theres a promise.
blessing after every storm.
testimony after a test.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Godly relationship.
is the one between me and aimee ^___^
we dont consider it a breakup.
upgrade foolio!
keep the lusting out the relationship cuz sin results in death!
hahaha. its nice God worked through me to make aimee a great person in God now.
wow did she grow alot in God from when i first met her.
it amazes me...she uses what i taught her.
back at me.
when i was down. its..crazy..hahaha.
i happy God gave me this experience. i love you God ^___^
yaay!
hahahaha. earlier. i was just making a song with my friend matt. got the lyrics down. hahaha.
wow ima hate singing this now.
Well, I guess, this, is, where we, must part.
I, leave, my, goodbyes, and keep, the pain, in, my, heart.
Our, empires gone, and returned, returned, to, the, sand.
Now, I sit, here, alone, with no one, to hold my hand
I’d, give up my heart, soul, and world, to thee above.
For just, one more day, with you, to try and earn back your love
(Chorus)
But yesterday’s dawn, has come, to an end.
Come today, I’m dethroned, I’ve become, Just, Another friend
Burn Up, our old pictures, and change our new ways.
We spend our evenings alone, and wait, for better days
My, dreams are shattered, and, my, heart, will break
The, night, has, ended.
And, still, I,
*sigh* Stay awake.
You, said you miss me, and yet I do to, feel the same.
And still we argue, about who’s to blame.
So, now I run, from your shadows, when you’re near
I, turn away, when you smile, your glee, I now, loathe and fear.
(Chorus)
But yesterday’s dawn, has come, to an end.
Come today, I’m dethroned, I’ve become, Just, Another friend
Burn Up, our old pictures, and change our new ways.
We spend our evenings alone, and wait, for better days
Now, time has passed, and, we, both, have, moved on
We, meet up, in a crossroad, our friendship, has, long since gone
I, look in your eyes, and say, “It’s good to see you again”
And, for that brief moment, we realize, what we could have been
(Chorus)
But yesterday’s dawn, has come, to an end.
Come today, I’m dethroned, I’ve become, Just, Another friend
Burn Up, our old pictures, and change our new ways.
We spend our evenings alone, and wait, for better days
(outro)
we dont consider it a breakup.
upgrade foolio!
keep the lusting out the relationship cuz sin results in death!
hahaha. its nice God worked through me to make aimee a great person in God now.
wow did she grow alot in God from when i first met her.
it amazes me...she uses what i taught her.
back at me.
when i was down. its..crazy..hahaha.
i happy God gave me this experience. i love you God ^___^
yaay!
hahahaha. earlier. i was just making a song with my friend matt. got the lyrics down. hahaha.
wow ima hate singing this now.
Well, I guess, this, is, where we, must part.
I, leave, my, goodbyes, and keep, the pain, in, my, heart.
Our, empires gone, and returned, returned, to, the, sand.
Now, I sit, here, alone, with no one, to hold my hand
I’d, give up my heart, soul, and world, to thee above.
For just, one more day, with you, to try and earn back your love
(Chorus)
But yesterday’s dawn, has come, to an end.
Come today, I’m dethroned, I’ve become, Just, Another friend
Burn Up, our old pictures, and change our new ways.
We spend our evenings alone, and wait, for better days
My, dreams are shattered, and, my, heart, will break
The, night, has, ended.
And, still, I,
*sigh* Stay awake.
You, said you miss me, and yet I do to, feel the same.
And still we argue, about who’s to blame.
So, now I run, from your shadows, when you’re near
I, turn away, when you smile, your glee, I now, loathe and fear.
(Chorus)
But yesterday’s dawn, has come, to an end.
Come today, I’m dethroned, I’ve become, Just, Another friend
Burn Up, our old pictures, and change our new ways.
We spend our evenings alone, and wait, for better days
Now, time has passed, and, we, both, have, moved on
We, meet up, in a crossroad, our friendship, has, long since gone
I, look in your eyes, and say, “It’s good to see you again”
And, for that brief moment, we realize, what we could have been
(Chorus)
But yesterday’s dawn, has come, to an end.
Come today, I’m dethroned, I’ve become, Just, Another friend
Burn Up, our old pictures, and change our new ways.
We spend our evenings alone, and wait, for better days
(outro)
dangit..
finally had sleep last night.
i hate sleep.
sleep is for the weak.
i think ima pull off an all nighter again. doing pushups and playing guitar again.
and texting some friends.
i hate sleep.
sleep is for the weak.
i think ima pull off an all nighter again. doing pushups and playing guitar again.
and texting some friends.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
bitter.
sweet.
at least its a bit sweet.
were just friends with a Godly relationship.
not friends with benifits.
we dont like each other sort of thing.
we just love each other.
as people.
bestest friend ever.
whole wide world.
if we only started things a different way.
not like what we used to be.
u know its really bad to make a promise. and break it.
we both learned that.
i promise most my friends and swore i would always be single.
wow. breaking it
puts all this into plan.
her?
hahaha. you know what you've said.
i hope you won't be too sure of yourself in the future.
otherwise things will happen a 3rd time.
i pray for you. and your friend who is also sick. that you may be guided by God through times like these. for new doors to open for you otherwise closed. and that you may be prepared and strengthened through the Lord. and in His name i tell the evil of seperation out. for love knows no record of wrongs. and that in the future we wouldn't make the same mistake again. otherwise, learn our lesson again.
in the name of Lord Jesus,
Amen.
at least its a bit sweet.
were just friends with a Godly relationship.
not friends with benifits.
we dont like each other sort of thing.
we just love each other.
as people.
bestest friend ever.
whole wide world.
if we only started things a different way.
not like what we used to be.
u know its really bad to make a promise. and break it.
we both learned that.
i promise most my friends and swore i would always be single.
wow. breaking it
puts all this into plan.
her?
hahaha. you know what you've said.
i hope you won't be too sure of yourself in the future.
otherwise things will happen a 3rd time.
i pray for you. and your friend who is also sick. that you may be guided by God through times like these. for new doors to open for you otherwise closed. and that you may be prepared and strengthened through the Lord. and in His name i tell the evil of seperation out. for love knows no record of wrongs. and that in the future we wouldn't make the same mistake again. otherwise, learn our lesson again.
in the name of Lord Jesus,
Amen.
now.
well me and aimee had a long talk.
and wow am i stupid hahaha.
we cleared some things up. hahaha
well at least we're best friends now.
i wonder whats the promise in that now.
and wow am i stupid hahaha.
we cleared some things up. hahaha
well at least we're best friends now.
i wonder whats the promise in that now.
i'm
sorry i messed up your freshman yr.
messed up part of your life
used my screwed up life to infectiously screw up yours.
sorry for being a loser with failed dreams
putting myself down in front of you
fell for you to only end up like this
never wrote you a song
can't sing
never had our song
never even got you anything
am gonna take off the bracelet you made for me telling me to never take it off and give it back
print out our pictures and place them facing down
for not having a heart to be broken
but im not even sure if you seem a bit sad.
you sorta seem like you like it so much better.
im not sad. just more in. wow. mode.
messed up part of your life
used my screwed up life to infectiously screw up yours.
sorry for being a loser with failed dreams
putting myself down in front of you
fell for you to only end up like this
never wrote you a song
can't sing
never had our song
never even got you anything
am gonna take off the bracelet you made for me telling me to never take it off and give it back
print out our pictures and place them facing down
for not having a heart to be broken
but im not even sure if you seem a bit sad.
you sorta seem like you like it so much better.
im not sad. just more in. wow. mode.
versedispersed (11:14:08 AM) : cuz her dancing with other guys...thats already kinda seein what else is out there ...
its just...awkward.sorta.talking to you.as not who we used to be.
i guess i sorta know why someone ppl. when these things happen they dont talk anymore.
cuz its a promised. guaranteed
continuous hurt.
rather than forgetting.
but oh its so worth it.
its just...awkward.sorta.talking to you.as not who we used to be.
i guess i sorta know why someone ppl. when these things happen they dont talk anymore.
cuz its a promised. guaranteed
continuous hurt.
rather than forgetting.
but oh its so worth it.
one day...youll find someone different. out there.
i still dont know why you pulled a guy to get closer to you...
but its a dance. what could've i've expected?
for you not to dance?
i guess its just what happens.
iono...thats what i was told. as the "truth" ur cousin calls it.
i guess i'll consider myself played.
cuz i wouldn't even hug another girl.
or pull her to get close up to me.
but whatever.
i had no heart in the beginning...
someone took it..i thought you'd give it back.
but i know God has one for me..
i still dont know why you pulled a guy to get closer to you...
but its a dance. what could've i've expected?
for you not to dance?
i guess its just what happens.
iono...thats what i was told. as the "truth" ur cousin calls it.
i guess i'll consider myself played.
cuz i wouldn't even hug another girl.
or pull her to get close up to me.
but whatever.
i had no heart in the beginning...
someone took it..i thought you'd give it back.
but i know God has one for me..
sleep.
i will never sleep.
until i am dead.
i couldn't get much sleep last night. hahahaa. after the whole thing happened. but at least i rejoiced. and one of my friends who lives 50ish miles away helped me out. it was nice to know that another person i knew was one of my brothers in Christ. so i was on aim really til about 3ish. he was helping me. i was talking to Beavis. and i know i need to go through this experience. to understand some other sorts of people to reach out to. Basically, you won't get molded without these things to happen. which hurt. but. i refuse to fall from God from worldy thing. i showed my friend melody of verse. psalms 118:5-6 :
"In my anguish i cried out to the Lord,
and he answered by setting me free
The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid
What can man do to me?"
there you go. and really. God doesnt work by you helping others without going through it yourself. otherwise you'd be helping them for only man's reason. because God is th eonly one who can heal.
so i gave her that. maybe she felt like because i didnt go through it. i wouldnt know.
hmm iono. but here you go (:
just trying to set an example.
hahahaa.
well im about done with my lyrics now hahaha. for the other song.. so here:
relly weird timing. but it works if you hear the guitar part.
"indelible"
you know they say you can still be in a room full of people
but still just get, a piece of that lonely...ness...
and i'm not doctor, but if its closed, why dont you open yourself up
and let i heal. yeah.and maybe youre just seeing new things |
wondering where did all the good times go..it couldn't be destroyed so it was hidden.
sorta like the clouds and the red sun's reflection, that, i always see on your cheek.
and youre two curved fingers..yeah.
indelible..pictures
thrown into my head
just can't forget
so i just got to hide.
your heart is out of broken words.
but i know you've been searching
but none will ever satisfy..
except through Me..
and if I don't remember?
what is that to you...i see you.
if maybe it was the other direction.
maybe it wouldve lifted you up...
instead of down
and
the in...delible pictures.
you've put them into my head
how the whites so thick
when reaches the bottom and around
if i could've only trust the hand...
that fed..that kept me from being awake on the bed
and now im only off for a better feature
of myself. but i guess i gotta fall hard..before i acheive hard.
until i am dead.
i couldn't get much sleep last night. hahahaa. after the whole thing happened. but at least i rejoiced. and one of my friends who lives 50ish miles away helped me out. it was nice to know that another person i knew was one of my brothers in Christ. so i was on aim really til about 3ish. he was helping me. i was talking to Beavis. and i know i need to go through this experience. to understand some other sorts of people to reach out to. Basically, you won't get molded without these things to happen. which hurt. but. i refuse to fall from God from worldy thing. i showed my friend melody of verse. psalms 118:5-6 :
"In my anguish i cried out to the Lord,
and he answered by setting me free
The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid
What can man do to me?"
there you go. and really. God doesnt work by you helping others without going through it yourself. otherwise you'd be helping them for only man's reason. because God is th eonly one who can heal.
so i gave her that. maybe she felt like because i didnt go through it. i wouldnt know.
hmm iono. but here you go (:
just trying to set an example.
hahahaa.
well im about done with my lyrics now hahaha. for the other song.. so here:
relly weird timing. but it works if you hear the guitar part.
"indelible"
you know they say you can still be in a room full of people
but still just get, a piece of that lonely...ness...
and i'm not doctor, but if its closed, why dont you open yourself up
and let i heal. yeah.and maybe youre just seeing new things |
wondering where did all the good times go..it couldn't be destroyed so it was hidden.
sorta like the clouds and the red sun's reflection, that, i always see on your cheek.
and youre two curved fingers..yeah.
indelible..pictures
thrown into my head
just can't forget
so i just got to hide.
your heart is out of broken words.
but i know you've been searching
but none will ever satisfy..
except through Me..
and if I don't remember?
what is that to you...i see you.
if maybe it was the other direction.
maybe it wouldve lifted you up...
instead of down
and
the in...delible pictures.
you've put them into my head
how the whites so thick
when reaches the bottom and around
if i could've only trust the hand...
that fed..that kept me from being awake on the bed
and now im only off for a better feature
of myself. but i guess i gotta fall hard..before i acheive hard.
hmmm.
| God is so good to me (: | |
| | gave me an exper and phili now that ive been dumpe and to get with someo singl throu and there thank |
|---|
if
only she didnt think she didnt bring me closer to God was a load of bs. would she also be lifted up. cuz she doesnt realize how much potential she has to be a great person in God. but Gods working through me. so she can become that great person God made her to be. cuz trust me shes been through more than me. which means she'll have much more understanding through God.but its sorta those kind of wakeup calls. you know? cuz God has feelings too. i sorta replacedHim i guess. i never learned my lesson as what He;s been trying to teach me. sorta like Moses. it got up the point where Moses wasnt able to go to the promised land anymore because of that.
well anyways ima go to bed now.
if youre reading this aimee.
hahhahaahhaha i really don't know what to say. i guess. im still the unsocial one from when i was with you. and i didnt know what to say.to now. i still don't know what to say. im relly sorry hahaha. i just pray that you may rejoice as i have. so you wouldnt be hurt. its sorta weird how youre sleeping or said u r right now. while im typing this. but hahahha. wow did i overreact. =/ thats the face you use when youre in a situation like this. so i just wanted to tell you. i suck. relly hahaha. but one day i won't. i won't suck to God. i'll at least try my best not to. cuz i messed up with you. i did with God. but youre not God. hahahaha. but youre the one whose brought me closer to Him. but i guess. now i'll have the time to work on my guitar. so i wouldnt fail this dream. cuz you were like. one of the only ones who believed in me and dreams. its sad how. i wont be able to cook for you.how we never had a song.how i never made you a song...how i refuse to commit adultery. but i hope God will lead you to someone even better than me. and dont make a 3rd mistake. cuz just because everything happens to you twice likes youve said. doesnt mean it wont happen a 3rd time. thats what i want to tell you. my best friend...Aimee Patricia D. Reyes. September 4, 1994. how akward my birthday will be...ive been thinking. oh well. its only my birthday. if we never met. if i was never born. even. what would be that to you?
its not like it can still happen. but. what is that to you? please dont cry. cuz only through God. that...
i love you.
Friday, January 16, 2009
morning.
so its already morning and i had the craziest dream ever. cuz my girlfriend aimee being a filipino had the hugest party ever that even my dad and famous ppl ended up being there. and i was like. wtheclk. how come im not there? and then i had my best friend melody come over to my house. and we decided to walk there. which is only like a 15 minute walk. but then it got weird and we ended up there the next day. and yeah. i woke up! hahaha. and then i took a shower and God showed me His love to me again. when i said thank you for this day He said you sin but i still let you live. because i love you so much. and i was like. dang...i mean like its the sort of thing you hear and youre like yeah i know that. but when God tells you that its just wow. hahaha. reminds me of other experiences i had this week. but yeah they unfortunately wont be here. since im starting from t oday. ahaha.
currently listening to: every little thing she does (no such thing)-john mayer.
cuz i wanna play guitar in life.
currently listening to: every little thing she does (no such thing)-john mayer.
cuz i wanna play guitar in life.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
song.
so today i made a song. with some lyrics. inspired by jack johnson. hahaha. i usually can't make good songs. but this ones pretty tight (:< well. its sorta inspired by an old friend too hahaha. that i no longer talk to. and some pretty nice values. in the lyrics of course but like the whole bunch of poems ive written i hope you'll understand it when i ever do get something to record with.
and also got the cell group tomorrow! woot! can't wait to see beavis and others again. testify and open up.
oh. and finals today hahaha. i think i did good hahaha. injured my neck yesterday T___T
so it was hell for me to be keeping my 6'1 body on a desk sized for a 4'11 person's head down looking at the scantron the whole time. but i think i did well on my alg2, spanish, and chem finals.
during chem me and my poker buddies finished early. so we played poker for about an hour. it was funny cuz one round my friend joseph maxed. and i only had as pair of 3 -___- but i was so lucky that i ended up with a four of a kind. hahaha. gonna go play guitar now so yeah.
and also got the cell group tomorrow! woot! can't wait to see beavis and others again. testify and open up.
oh. and finals today hahaha. i think i did good hahaha. injured my neck yesterday T___T
so it was hell for me to be keeping my 6'1 body on a desk sized for a 4'11 person's head down looking at the scantron the whole time. but i think i did well on my alg2, spanish, and chem finals.
during chem me and my poker buddies finished early. so we played poker for about an hour. it was funny cuz one round my friend joseph maxed. and i only had as pair of 3 -___- but i was so lucky that i ended up with a four of a kind. hahaha. gonna go play guitar now so yeah.
so..
After alot of failed attempts at trying to make one. stupid verification captcha thingy where you have to type the letters and numbers in. i finally made this.
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