dont it always seem to go

that you don't know what you got
til its gone.

hahahah lots of things happening, but i know God gots me to see these things happen for a reason.
i thank Him so much for everything =]
its still the molding time. always.
cuz its the brightest thing ive got

-by

ipod touch project: day 1

so eventually we wanna sell this idea to i think instructables?
my friend michael, a dif michael from my mentor michael ahhaa.
but this one, andys brother, well i went to his house today hopefully trying to go chill with andy hahaha. which didnt happen til pretty late in the night.
well my ipod touch light has been broken for about a yr now, and knowing that my friend is good at electronics and engineering and random stuff, i decided to start this thing with him on my ipod touch. we wanted to mod it, and do deisgns and stuff.

so we first opened up the ipod touch. safely removed ribbon cables, logic board, and all the stuff that was cheaply set with clue and screws.
then inside the back cover did an engraving of the date and all that good stuff. we took a look at the lcd and learned alot hahaa. leanring that its just super thin pieces of metal sheets with programming inside layign on top of a piece of glass. intense huh? ahhaha. well, on the itouch,the netire back is metal, with the outer rimming of the front part. the rest, the touch part, is actually glass, therefore paint or anythign wont stay on but just scrape and smear off. therefore we used metal tape, and duct tape to go on the front part, cut out the framing for the rim, and peel that part of the tape off. so we can easily spray the entire thing, but only the rim would have paint left when we peel off the tape. the front is to be red outlining, and the back part, we wrote down my serial number on my phone and all, and used sandpaper to sand down the back, so the specs would be gone, and it would be super shiny and soft and unbelievably smooth ahahha. we sanded it in a downwards direction (if your ipod touch is standing upright in the correct position) and sprayed the entire back white, watching out that the spray paint wouldnt go through part of the usb/audio areas and cover the ribbon connector's pins, because that may be bad stuff D: so after that, we put metal tape over the back, which is all white, and i drew a design, sort of a monterey pop stratocaster, only found by jimi hendix live in monterey's tour (the guitar he burned) and john mayer, holding a replica that he paid like 7 grand for. hhaha extremely hard to find. so since the back is all white underneath the metallic tape, i drew the designs, and would cut out some of the deisgns with this sharp edge we had, and cover the rest of the design we didnt want red, and easily spray it all red, only having the cut out uncovered part red. and do other colors like green, brown etc later on.
so its not exactly done with the design, which is actually engraved and then sprayed on btw hahaha. totally forgot to mention that. and ill hopefully be back there monday =] to continue the good stuff hahaha.

today was a really good experience ahaha. hanging with such different people like that =] learning alot and all.

God taught me that like sometimes, in order to be molded into who He designed me to be. like an artist, he has to sorta get rid of the rough edges, or like shake off the unecessary. and i can truly see Him working on me. He's getting rid of the things i do not need, and uprooting things and giving me more things. so really, let's just put it like this. just let go and let God! ahahha sounds simple huh? ahah xD well its simple, if your mind is set to it. everythigns all in the mind, thigns you do, motivations, even how you feel and correctly responding to situations which can also help you in being optimistic,(philippians 4:4,8) and like that one chapter in matthew where i think peter was in the boat and Jesus was walkign on water and by faith peter walked on water when his eyes were fixed on Jesus. but since there was a strom as soon as he took his eyes off Jesus he started to sink. same with us, our problems are below us,and we are above our problems (water) when we focus our eyes on Jesus,(our minds and all), but when we stop having him off our mind most of the time, dont even realize him all the time which helps us be better in our actions, thats when we tend to fall away, or just take Him for granted etc.
confession: theres my problem ahahha. it just started again recently, but hopefully i can focus more on Him. idle time is the devil's playground hahaha. sometimes i just dont have Him on my mind, especially hanging with friends, i did for a moment and it was just wow. things happening hahaha. but yeah. its during tests when God can shine the most through you, because of right actions(that is if you do take the right course of actions) but i know im being put through this cuz of a prophecy my friend/mentor beavis told me about.when he was talking to me n an old friend that we rarely see now about who we would want to reach out to someday. i said the younger generation, cuz most people, hit puberty and styff mid school, and thats when most of the trouble starts to happen, depression etc. and now i can see, ive been molded enough, after 2 yrs, to continue working with God. i met ALOT of the younger generation, funny thing is i love to hangw ith older people, and theyre mostly my close friends that i talk to chill and hang and like adult sort of talk, hnaging out at a food place and just be chill and talk ahhaha. i dont relly like to hang with my own peers cuz i feel that they r into too many stupid things and for a moment i was too, but i caught myself. just blank in the head, no revelations or realizations, not exactly what id say mature. but what do i know? ahahhaa. i guess its cuz im a mellow guy. but its nice to have the younger generation looking up to me as a sort of friend/good friend/ and even best friend =] ahhahaa. i know this is happening cuz God has a better plan for me than i do for myself.

its the brightest thing i have.

-by

hmm

mellow days. love it. just like me. hahahaha
good day to play guitar, sing, and play sf4 at mikes house! woot! hahaha and shoot, the best for last, cell! hahahaha. we haven't had that in awhile. God has His promises =]
but shoot, matthew 6:33! wooot! aahhahaha

anyways, im in the middle of a sognwriting thing i gots going on =] i pray that i could write with Him and not lose focus, or inspiration.

cuz He's the brightest thing i've got.

-by

down to the wire

i wanted water but i'll walk through the fire
if this it what it takes
to get me even higher
like i do, when i do
when the world keeps testing me, testing me, and testing me..

summer schools been easy so far hahaha, hope i get that a!
God's been blesinng me alot
good food today =]
nice chilling wiht my friend sam ahahha
losing alot of sleep now!
>___<
off to go rest! ahahahaa.
learning alot on the guitar, i just got some texts from my man scott about jamming again ahhahaa. woot!
im still thankful for those vocal lessons =]
so thankful for God, Jesus, for the Hly Spirit is in me.
the same that healed the blind man's eyes is in me. the One who raised ppl from the dead bys yaing come get up or wake up is in me. and i know that i can do all things in He who strengthens me (i think thats correct but the point is there), philippians 4:13?
ahahhaa. its nice to know that He can shine through me. cuz im just nothing. but with Him i become something...someone. and people see me, and sometimes get wowed, sometimes go like eww, but its not me they see ahahhaa. i don't shine. He does. and its nice to know that ppl can even think of me in ways when its relly just Him doing His work through me.

cuz its the brightest thing i've got.

-by

summer

madness.
agahahha
summer just seems so blank for me.
but iono. hate the weather, but perfect weather for the music i love.
that bluesy jazzy even funky sort of stuff.

cuz ive got dreams..to remember =]-otis redding.


it just seems that theres so much more to summer right now
but i dont know yet ahhaa
its still fresh. and i got summer school starting next week!
yes! ahahhaa =] im taking art lawl.

ive been improving alot on the guitar.
had alot of genre crap going on. like what i should play.
i def know now.
=]
thanks to God, andy, scott for all the stuff you guys r helping me on the guitar ahahha.
thanks to everyone else for being a good friend and there for me =]


but seriously, thank you God =]

cuz You're the brightest thing i've got.

-by

covered in rain/

hmm.even a financial crisis and major debt can bring me stress ahhaha.
i wonder things. how to pay for college, cuz that moneys all spent.
alot of things revelaed, mom getting mad as an excuse to go shopping even more withdrawing cash, sendng checks to herself for more cash to spend. dad beings stressed out and frustrated cuz its his pay thats being spent by my mom. and my future ahhahaa.

but i know God will guide us out.

cuz He's the brightest thing i've got.


God is good. always

-by

a sorta summer to do list...sorta.

go to andy's house alot more to jam
jam with scott and william more
finish summer school with all a's
continue working on singing
job, save up money
continue on the driving stuff hahaha
find that one place again
chills with some people
get fit again
start listening to some other stuff
get closer to God =]

You're my

muse.

I still seem to be a bit impatient. but i can never hold anything inside of me. i always have to say sorry ahahaha.well my summers been great so far. i'm taking art starting next week for summer school ahahha. its kinda weird cuz its like that phase again when youre just like.UGH.new people at the school ahahah.and theyre freshman and little and not exactly grown up yet? ahahha i wouldn't know xD you know im just kidding anyways so ahhaha.been able to start going to church on sundays again =] its wonderful.
I've been starting to get into a bit more into indie or liek math rock sort of music, where i have to incorporate large amounts of whatever the heck i'm feeling at the moment into weird techniques such as intense finger tapping-techniques first inspired by stanley jordan and stuff.for the others who don't understand what the heck i just said, im not quite sure either xD <---not really. uhhh, ive been getting relly into stuff like interpol, doves, especially of montreal, and the fall of troy haahha. that sort of stuff.=]
I think i'm spiritually in a good place right now, but i know i can always do better. so if i were to give myself a grade in anything, id always give myself that f, cuz as long as i can do better, im not exactly successful in whatevers going on because i haven't exactly acheived that highest point.but my walk with Gods been smooth so far =] i feel a bit of fear sometimes or somehow, ahahah i guess its from the stuff id watch on tv and stuff, but theyre all just tests, so yeah. but overall, God's been unbelievably good to me.im still very thankful for the vocal elssons im receiving right now and family, and friends. especially some of my most recent ones that i'm getting close with, because i know God's providing me with certain people or people ive haven known because it'll help mold me. because like i learned in church, we are all living stones (gah dont remember the verse) but like all stones before they have to build upon each other, like how in 1 thessalonians says we r to encourage and build upon each other, we must be molded, like jagged parts taken off and stuff hahahaha. sorta make sense? ahahhaa. well. to put it all short, basically, i know Gods placed me where i am today with certain people and situtations involving me and others or just others for a purpose. a good purpose, because like any good loving father, theyd want their child(ren) to grow u =] and thats exactly what God wants to do with me.

currently reading:1 timothy
currently listening to: A Dreamy Day of Day Dreaming of You

every day is a dreamy day of daydreaming of you....
I can dream of you without snoring and I'm lucky that that's true =]

overall, God is good. always.
just read what i just wrote. (optimism is key.)<--honestly, my goal is to make you think, "of what?" but seriously, think about it =],openess is healing and words are powerful with love, otherwise at least i'd only be something that makes sound, without love that is. 1 corinthians 13.

-by

last day of my sophomore yr of school

ahahhaha pretty tight. a bit bittersweet =]
definitely gonna miss a couple of people.
God's been good this whole year, and today =]

currently listening to: i dont trust myself (with loving you)-john mayer
"hold onto whatever will get you through"

God id good.
always.
and i am blessed.

here's a verse for you musicians or ppl who like music out there.
ephesians 5:19-20

hahaha

i don't like it when my dad tells my mom ima fail. and doesnt want her to tell me but my mom tells me anyways.
and it all pieces up about why he's tryign to tell me to try harder, sleep earlier and getting pissedt hat i'm not taking a nap at like 5 and stuff. ahahha dumb stuff xD whatever i forgive him, but that was pretty "penis" of my dad right there. talking to me as if im failing school ahahaha. giving me all that attitude hahaha. but whatever.
i must always honor parents =]

and God's still treating me right.

i had my chem finals today. passed pinkslip test too ahhaha.

tomorrow i have no finals.
thursday i have alg2 and spanish final

but overall God is good

-bryan