You're my

muse.

I still seem to be a bit impatient. but i can never hold anything inside of me. i always have to say sorry ahahaha.well my summers been great so far. i'm taking art starting next week for summer school ahahha. its kinda weird cuz its like that phase again when youre just like.UGH.new people at the school ahahah.and theyre freshman and little and not exactly grown up yet? ahahha i wouldn't know xD you know im just kidding anyways so ahhaha.been able to start going to church on sundays again =] its wonderful.
I've been starting to get into a bit more into indie or liek math rock sort of music, where i have to incorporate large amounts of whatever the heck i'm feeling at the moment into weird techniques such as intense finger tapping-techniques first inspired by stanley jordan and stuff.for the others who don't understand what the heck i just said, im not quite sure either xD <---not really. uhhh, ive been getting relly into stuff like interpol, doves, especially of montreal, and the fall of troy haahha. that sort of stuff.=]
I think i'm spiritually in a good place right now, but i know i can always do better. so if i were to give myself a grade in anything, id always give myself that f, cuz as long as i can do better, im not exactly successful in whatevers going on because i haven't exactly acheived that highest point.but my walk with Gods been smooth so far =] i feel a bit of fear sometimes or somehow, ahahah i guess its from the stuff id watch on tv and stuff, but theyre all just tests, so yeah. but overall, God's been unbelievably good to me.im still very thankful for the vocal elssons im receiving right now and family, and friends. especially some of my most recent ones that i'm getting close with, because i know God's providing me with certain people or people ive haven known because it'll help mold me. because like i learned in church, we are all living stones (gah dont remember the verse) but like all stones before they have to build upon each other, like how in 1 thessalonians says we r to encourage and build upon each other, we must be molded, like jagged parts taken off and stuff hahahaha. sorta make sense? ahahhaa. well. to put it all short, basically, i know Gods placed me where i am today with certain people and situtations involving me and others or just others for a purpose. a good purpose, because like any good loving father, theyd want their child(ren) to grow u =] and thats exactly what God wants to do with me.

currently reading:1 timothy
currently listening to: A Dreamy Day of Day Dreaming of You

every day is a dreamy day of daydreaming of you....
I can dream of you without snoring and I'm lucky that that's true =]

overall, God is good. always.
just read what i just wrote. (optimism is key.)<--honestly, my goal is to make you think, "of what?" but seriously, think about it =],openess is healing and words are powerful with love, otherwise at least i'd only be something that makes sound, without love that is. 1 corinthians 13.

-by