sleep.

i will never sleep.
until i am dead.

i couldn't get much sleep last night. hahahaa. after the whole thing happened. but at least i rejoiced. and one of my friends who lives 50ish miles away helped me out. it was nice to know that another person i knew was one of my brothers in Christ. so i was on aim really til about 3ish. he was helping me. i was talking to Beavis. and i know i need to go through this experience. to understand some other sorts of people to reach out to. Basically, you won't get molded without these things to happen. which hurt. but. i refuse to fall from God from worldy thing. i showed my friend melody of verse. psalms 118:5-6 :
"In my anguish i cried out to the Lord,
and he answered by setting me free

The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid
What can man do to me?"

there you go. and really. God doesnt work by you helping others without going through it yourself. otherwise you'd be helping them for only man's reason. because God is th eonly one who can heal.
so i gave her that. maybe she felt like because i didnt go through it. i wouldnt know.
hmm iono. but here you go (:
just trying to set an example.
hahahaa.

well im about done with my lyrics now hahaha. for the other song.. so here:

relly weird timing. but it works if you hear the guitar part.
"indelible"

you know they say you can still be in a room full of people
but still just get, a piece of that lonely...ness...
and i'm not doctor, but if its closed, why dont you open yourself up
and let i heal. yeah.and maybe youre just seeing new things |
wondering where did all the good times go..it couldn't be destroyed so it was hidden.
sorta like the clouds and the red sun's reflection, that, i always see on your cheek.
and youre two curved fingers..yeah.

indelible..pictures
thrown into my head
just can't forget
so i just got to hide.

your heart is out of broken words.
but i know you've been searching
but none will ever satisfy..
except through Me..

and if I don't remember?
what is that to you...i see you.
if maybe it was the other direction.
maybe it wouldve lifted you up...
instead of down
and

the in...delible pictures.
you've put them into my head
how the whites so thick
when reaches the bottom and around

if i could've only trust the hand...
that fed..that kept me from being awake on the bed
and now im only off for a better feature
of myself. but i guess i gotta fall hard..before i acheive hard.